The person I loved treated me as shit. He left suddenly after a year’s relationship. Then he came back after 6 months and I accepted him. The biggest mistake of my life?- well not really but one of the worst for sure.
We were happy. He introduced me to his new group of friends @ MBA class. Once he joked about seeing a beautiful girl in a university programme. “I wanna flirt with her if u dont mind….,” he said. Then on January 30th, I was playing with his phone and noticed a “heaven” saved. He argued its a girl who keeps calling him, bothering him. He saved it as Heaven for fun. I almost agreed…but the name flashed before my eyes. I took his phn again and saw it was a outgoing call. Then he said its the girl his family chose for marriage. And he has no way out of this. He has been going out with her for 3 months. I was terribly hurt. I slapped him, cried….he tried to reason me.
It was one of his MBA friends I talked to. That friend told me the real story. While he was with me, caring for me, sleeping with me, he met the girl in a programme. He then flirted, took her to his parents and decided to get married. It was not arranged, it was love. I felt betrayed…..too much for me to take. It came to an end when in Feb 14th, he gifted the chocolates I presented him. My head was blank. He said not to call him now as she may feel bad. I put the phn down. Got 40 sleeping pills out of my roommate’s bad. Swallowed one by one. I was not feeling bad, hurt, happy…anything. Then I lied down and after some time…i was unconscious.
To let u know I dont have ties with my parents and I have no friends near me.
That night dont know why my cousin called me many times. After a while my room mate picked up and described my state. I was living in a hostel and the authority did not wanna take up any trouble. They were to throw me out. My cousin called all the relatives I had in the city. Noone came. Noone called. Some hung up on her. She then called a long lost friend, who lived nearby. God knows why he responded. He was in my hostel in 10 mins and I was admitted to a hospital in half an hour.
I was in the ICU for 2 days. That friend and one of my roommate stayed there all night. When I got back, my hostel super told me to leave.
I dont know why I am alive today. Things r not going right. Again I am on the verge of quitting.
Why do people betray? If u get involved with someone, just say so….why did he play games with me? Did he gain anything from it?
Its been 6 months now. And know what….I am surprised….my current bf is going the same way as my ex. I am weaker than before. I lost my first child a month ago. Now I live alone. Noone will knock if I lock myself in. This time maybe I will succeed.
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You are not weaker than before- you are stronger because you are realizing new bf for who he is.
You are alive because your meant to be alive- you are here for a reason and you will stand up to this man and say no more! I had a very horrible relationship for 8 1/2 yrs- I was abused in every way- cheated on constantly- dumped off randomly when “he” didn’t want to be around me… Left for days in places with no money no friends no way to call anyone no food and guess what- I survived because I was supposed to
You will get through this. No man is ever worth killing yourself over – and I say that from experience purely. Not to downplay your feelings because your story is yours- but looking from the outside in and reading your story…I just feel like you are a romantic and want to find the good in people. That is why you took old bf back
History often repeats itsself… But only to a point. Here is your point and you can make it better!
It’s not exactly your fault that all these guys happen to be jerks, your a good person yourself and I really don’t know what to say. Heck I may not cheer you up but if this does help than that’s great.
Like silentangel says “No guy is worthing killing yourself over” No guy is, your just waiting for Mr.Right to come along, and he will, have patience, have faith and most of all. Next time you look for a boyfriend PLEASE get your aunt to inspect him or if you ever find me, me to interrogate him >:D.
Don’t let history reapeat itself and life is cruel and mean but are you going to let that guy get what he wants? I mean if that guy did what he did than show to him that your stronger that you can do better and that he messed up.
Don’t EVER KILL YOURSELF! If he did something like that than is he worht dying for?