I’m currently a 20 year old living in New Jersey, and I suffer from bipolar disorder. I got kicked out of my house, and I live at my fiancee’s house. She hates me, my friends hate me, and bascially everyone hates me. My medicine never works, and I’m always very depressed not doing what I do daily. I got in a fist fight with my best friend, and it has become worse. I’ve abused my fiancee because of all the pain I have caused, and I want to end my life. She understands why I did it, but doesn’t know how to react. Someone please help me. I don’t mean to do any of these things, I’m just very sick and just need a hand to reach out to. It’s like I’m hanging on to a cliff, and no one tries to pull me up, just tries to undo my hands from the cliff. I just need a hand to reach out to and grab. I just want to get out of this world for everything I have done because of my illness. I am suffering so much.