I’ve been planning to kill myself but also in the process I’ve been trying to find a reason to stay alive. I’m struggling.
Today, for the first time in ages I switched on the TV and I don’t know if I’ve finally gone mental but all the faces on the TV just seem ridiculous, I have noticed that even people’s facial expressions are fake these days. Then earlier I was googling something and came across a yahoo answers question link, I ended up just out of boredom just looking at other questions (this was the first time I had been on this site). The questions I was looking at were non religious, just random things but it on one of the questions the guy who posted it was complaining that christians were bombarding his post so he politely pointed out that his question was non religious and so could they please leave him alone. Well they bombarded him even more! And they were really aggressive. One of the posts mentioned that christians do this all the time on the yahoo answers site and so I viewed lots of other questions and it was the case. They jumped onto sites that had no religious matters involved but they for some weird reason (as if they were robots or on drugs) add onto the post about jesus and god and the bible, it was pretty scary to tell you the truth.The whole thing has just depressed me beyond belief. Before this, I had no opinion about christians one way or another, well, in fact, I guess I assumed that they were nice people if anything but nothing beyond that. After tonights experience, I feel pretty disgusted by it all. Even religious people are total ar@eholes that have no respect for anyone else. No-one has any respect for anyone else in this god damn world, everyone is awful. This is HELL. Either that or I’m stuck in a f@cking zombie movie.