im losing somebody i love who helped me through the years of pain who was there 2 comfort me when i came home from school crying bcuz i was being bullied teased or made fun of i was hated for what i looked like and constantly beaten up all the time nobody helped me so i always cried 2 my parents and they wud tell me im just faking using it as an excuse so i wont go 2 school, each night i wud hide in my room 2 cry and cut myself on my wrists nobody cared for my pain i go through it by myself i almost jumped off my apartment roof because i felt i dont belong bcuz im not wanted
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when i was in 10 th grade there was this new girl in my art class. she had just moved from another state. i only remember looking at her a couple of times but she seemed cute but shy. i wasn’t outgoing myself so i didnt even think of talking to her. on spring break i read her name in the paper. she had jumped off a 10 story building. the story said that her boyfriend had died in a car crash and she had a couple other problems i guess. i am 38 years old now and everyonce in a while i still think about her. she had only been at the school a week or 2. i sometimes fantasize that i’m back in high school and that i notice how sad she is and i reach out to her. please dont do nothing permanent. you never know sometimes there are caring people right around you and they are just to shy.
I understand what you mean to feel like as if your not wanted, it’s a terrible feeling that no one should have to feel, but a lot of people unfortunately do. If you need someone to talk to, you can talk to me. A lot of people on this site are great listeners, which is something I’ve experienced personally. I came to this site for help. I was feeling alone and useless. I felt that nothing in life mattered. Then after reading other people’s posts, and hearing kind words from strangers on this site, I reconsidered my options in life. I still am lonely, and I am still very depressed, but I think that there is still hope. I want you to know that you can talk to me at anytime, and I’m here to listen and to give you my advice if you want it. It is very hard to lose someone we are close with, and it’ll take a lot to even begin to cope with it, but when and if you’re ever ready, I’m here.
Also, I have to agree with what tedkramer7 said. There usually are a few caring people around, they are just to shy. I believe that to be very true.
Loss. As if you cannot do anything, as if anything you do won’t work. Sometimes you must lose, if you want to gain. That person would have wanted you to move on.
If you lose, you will also find anew.