to jjgg

jjgg,
I’m glad that you have survived.
Prove me wrong that you are not an exceptional beauty.
I saw your beauty in your story here, though deleted.
It would have been a waste if you had died.
You can do so much with your beauty and help build a world you want to live.

Let me tell you a story that happened 7 years ago.
My wife whom a lousy and terrible new driver wanted her first car, and we went to a dealership.
Since I knew about cars, I chose the best handling of a small car for her, and also in the consideration of our mere 2 years old daughter would be accompanying her.
There I met the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen. She was a salesgirl there.
Her name is “big sea”. The name, her father, a sailor who loves the open-sea gave her.
Her features, outlines of each element on her face are in a perfect match.
The bones and sizes of each placement are just in harmony of one another.
I just couldn’t find her any flaws I could complain.
It’s just an art.
I even told my wife about this beauty I saw, but of course she didn’t think so.
I even said this girl worth not millions in dollar sense, and not even multi millions, but it’s billions.
But what a waste I later saw, when we visited the second time in order to buy, she was out for a break.
So I went outside for a smoke, not long, I saw her walking out from their resting room without seeing me, she was walking like a tramp and behaving in a mood like a prostitute unwilling to serve the next customer would be.
I then walked back to join my wife, there she behaved once again like the person we met the first time, diligently nice. What a hypocrite !
Oh, gosh, I really wanted to tell her right there what she had really tramped her life. But I wasn’t in the position of doing anything, right ? So I just let it be.

Since you have the qualities of the essential status laid out, and having problems right now, it seems to give me a chance to smack you on the face, so to speak, telling you that, you are much much more than what you are having right now.
You can do so much more to contribute to build a nice world around you, with the nets you may have, the multi times of money you may have, to help see the nice world rise in front of you that shining through your life.
Money is sin but also a blessing for the poor, just see where you are to stand.
You are not a person should be waiting to be selected, be a boss, select your own life.

I was wrong without sooner knowing the real facts underlying for me.
I’m now going to strive using my mere ability, I don’t wish much, just at least build a small small world around me, to contribute a little bit of mine, otherwise it’s really a waste of my life !
If I can’t shine for myself, how can I shine for others.
It’s not to get back what they owe me, but to get what in my dreams a beautiful life I should be in, to realize it.
It’s not easy for everybody to dream the same dream, but at least I do my part as a decent human of being.
I’m not a hero to die, or burn in hell to protest, just a mere individual working according to my own abilities toward my dream.
It’s not people around me unhappy, it’s me unhappy to crumble the whole world.
Not to pessimize why they treat me like this, but to optimize what I’d like to see.
So I’ll be busy now. So long.

to others :
lower your own pride.
Blame noone, but yourself. Then to forgive.
So be a beggar on the street, as long as you are in gratitude to say thanks.
What that counts is the future gratitude from others toward you saying thanks to even.
The world of now or future is not where you stand, but where your heart stands.

I learned my lessons here, in this site, good or evil, the miniature of the outside world, the purgatory, so to speak.
Thank you all very much.
I wish you well !