I was just wondering… maybe this has been specifically discussed before on a different thread (before I joined), or maybe there’s an unspoken rule of not talking about this… but since the subtitle of this site is “Tell Your Suicide Story with Others”, is anyone open to listing the method(s) they chose to end it all?
Obviously since we’re reading this, the method was not completely carried out, but I was just curious if anyone wanted to list the method(s) they chose (or perhaps are thinking about), kinda like a survey of everyone’s plan(s). Or am I way out of line here in asking?
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Not at all, you’re not out of line.
Mine is helium hood (exit bag) but I have to ensure I am handcuffed because I have done this before and somehow removed the bag.
And you?
1.Carbon monoxide
2.explosion
eat a shit load of LSD and on the best peak put a gun to your head and just do it!!! obviously i have not done that but it seems like a good way!!!!
I hope you choose to live, you can still eat some LSD though
You are not out of line. I, myself, have been curious of the same things. I guess I just like to know I’m not alone.
I tried to OD, two different times and one other time slit my wrists. Obviously I failed all attempts.
How does a person obtain carbon monoxide? I have looked into this and i meet with dead ends. Anyone know?
Hey pink404, you can’t obtain or buy Carbon Monoxide, its a by-product of combustion of a carbon based product such as a fossil fuel – petrol.
I tried slitting my wrists twice…couldn’t cut deep enough. Thank goodness!
I don’t want to die at all…
G1974: Really? Well I know that you can buy it, there are tanks of it available, pure carbon monoxide, I saw it, but you need to be a valid company with a legitimate use for it. And I researched that only PURE carbon monoxide kills. But then I got to thinking about how people die in their cars (in the old days), that’s not pure carbon monoxide is it?
So I have a question for you; how does a person go about killing themselves by carbon monoxide poisoning these days? I would love to know this as it was actually my first choice, it’s the easiest way to do it by far. btw, I know how one would do it if they had a tank of pure carbon monoxide, but that’s not easy to get hold of.
Oh also, I have another question! Remember people used to shove their heads in the gas ovens years ago (oh how easy suicide used to be!) well what gas was that? and is that available nowadays?
I recently watched some films about suicide (real ones) (i’m so morbid!) one was Sylvia Blath (I think thats how you spell it) the poet, well she put tape around the windows and door of her kitchen and turned the oven on – she fell asleep and never woke up, BLISS!!! What is that gas and how would one obtain some? I figure though that you would need a lot to fill up a whole kitchen.
Also, another true one, a film called Garage, it’s so sad, about a man (a bit of a simple but harmless man) kills himself by drowning (so does virginia wolf) they both literally walk into a river. How do you drown yourself? I would imagine your body would struggle and simply pull out of the water?
Another one called seven pounds about a man that kills himself in an ice bath with an electric eel!! Fabulous! This film is well worth a watch because hollywood movies rarely show such things as suicides but the thing is shown in detail and very well and realistically portrayed.
Saw Seven Pounds. I had forgot about that one. I like how he died with purpose, bringing life to others through his act of dying.
As for myself:
1. First time: Took 30 Percocet and 30 T3’s with Codeine (I’m allergic to Codeine). A friend figured that something was wrong and I ended up in hospital… itchy all over and difficulty breathing. They gave me charcoal, epinephrine, and stuff to counter the acetaminophen in my body so I wouldn’t go into liver failure, and lots of blood tests over many hours. Still lived.
2. Learned from the first experience. I was naiive the first time and wasn’t aware that Percocet and Codeine both were basically acetaminophen based, so this time I took a rainbow of drugs. But I didn’t really want to die. I thought it was the only way to silence and appease the thoughts that kept harassing me to do it. Part of me still wanted to live, so I took the pills in front of my mental health counselor. Made for good shock value, but I should have known that he was legally obligated to do something about it.
3. Learned from last two experiences. Did research this time around. Needed to find something with a high chance of success. Planned death by train – found the perfect location and rehearsed it. Should have been simple enough – train comes, head pops off, end of pain and suffering. But before I could complete the act, I was forced into hospital and committed against without consent.
I couldn’t have that, so I took the pillow case off the pillow they gave me and I tied it as tight as possible around my throat and waited for the end to come. I was so close at succeeding until my doctor came in to check on me and found me like that and put an end to that attempt. Then they drugged me, took away my clothes and locked me up in a room with only a thick blanket and mattress. Nothing else. Savages.
So I began picking at the wall until I found a weak spot and I worked my way through the drywall. But that only ended up with them drugging me more and moving me into a impenetrable room. Wished they would have just let me put myself out of my misery!
JennyA: I think love you xx
I was thinking of setting off about 10 raid foggers in a closet. but knowing my luck i’ll just go blind or end up paralyzed.
nonbeliever: Awwww, thanks! ♥ ♥ ♥
Hope212: You made me laugh! (“I hope you choose to live, you can still eat some LSD though”). It’s great when someone can still make me laugh despite everything going on in my head 🙂
jackUK: I’ve never heard of a helium bag before. Just a helium balloon. Is it the same idea? Replacing the oxygen in your system with helium instead until your brain becomes so deprived of oxygen that it dies? I don’t think I could bear dying from suffocation or drowning – I think I’d likely panic and chicken out.
jaded: explosion? Wow. I’d be worried that not all of me would destroyed in the explosion and that they’d find a way to revive me – then I’d be stuck living with burns and less limbs. But I guess if you plan it right…
reyna15: If you don’t want to die at all, I hope you can get help. It’s a terrible thing to want to live and yet feel that you can’t help but take your life. I’ve been in that situation before (as in my second attempt), but there’s so many times when I just see the logic in dying. Like right now.
brittany112409: Good to know I’m not alone in thinking like this either!
pink404: There’s people who die in their homes due to carbon monoxide poisoning from their malfunctioning furnace or something like that. I wonder if there’s a way to intentionally rig it so it releases the toxic gas? If that was possible, the death might be ruled accidental and one might be able collect (pass on) life insurance. Although if anyone ever connected the death to this post, the scheme probably wouldn’t work.
Trust me pink404, I have dealt with people who have tried and sometimes have killed themselves with Carbon Monoxide, I worked in Emergency Departments and Intensive Care. The tanks you are referring to as far as I know as from scuba diving and its again a by product or its used in scientific experiments. Carbon Monoxide is released in cigarette smoke also so you could always do it slowly over many years…