I have tried the following methods:
1. Drinking bleach – It made me throw up shortly after ingesting it. My stomach burned for weeks. Unsuccessful.
2. Hanging – Did not know how to tie a correct noose, and my head slipped out after my throat was crushed. Could not swallow well for a few weeks. Painful.
3. Prescription drugs – Did not have enough to complete the job apparently. This method was pleasant and I am looking forward to trying it again with morphine,or the h2s method just waiting for the right time now ,not be long now been suffering now for 12years any tips on getting better ? anyone .
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You know, maybe the fact that you were unsucessuful just goes to show you wernt meant to die! 12 years is a hell of a long time but any tips on getting better? you mean you want help? There is alot of help out there but surely you must have tried getting help right? Like counselling ect. Why would you want to kill yourself? what reasons do you have? You know depression they say is due to things that happened in the past that has troubled you ever sinse and so on. But why cant you see whats good around you? that may be hard at first but whos to say you cant appriciate just looking up at the sky and watching the stars and everything beautiful in the world. Although life can get tough, talk through whats bothering you and get it off your chest. Now i dont know whats wrong with you but theres always room for change. Life can be good but bad things have to happen aswell. There must be things you want to do with your life, why waste it and throw it away, when you can say fuck it and do what the hell you like. Dont let anyone or anything destroy your happiness. Remember you could find something later in life even if thats a talent and oneday you could find yourself wondering why you ever wanted to end your life.
Personaly i have tried ovedosing and also didnt take enough but im glad because what i was worried about was solved and it would have been a pointless mistake.
Im asking you to think about it before doing anything drastic because you never know what life has instore for you, you might just get lucky!
Sorry if this is no help what so ever but i hope you think about it and find happiness xxxx
Hiya, Thanks for the reply but i really find it hard to talk about it ,i do want to talk but iam the kind of person that just struggles with life at the best of times now .But its now or never now i have to talk ,i cant go-on just pretending that life if fine and that im ok , just dont want to be a let down ,its my own fault for trying to cope with it myself , i think my doc just thinks i need to go back to work , you want to try working when your head is in bits all the time people think your lazy or somthing ive battled with this monster inside for far 2 long , i will try one last time for help . i know i dont belong here on this earth my soul is somewhere else i just want to go home now , fuck me have i gave up allready sorry .