It stops when I either put the Helium hood on (after hand cuffing myself) or put the 12 gauge to my heart and pull the trigger. I am no teenager looking for attention or a person with little to complain about. I have been type 1 diabetic since the age of 15 (I am now 29) and the shots are proving to be too much for me. Last year I found out that I had a record breaking (size) Clear Cell Meningioma in my head that for whatever dumb ass reason I had it removed, but……….not before it left me blind! I can’t fuckin see, my body is rejecting these shots and I am ADDICTED to sex that I NEVER get simply due to my lack of social skills. I can’t wait to die! Every morning is the same thing…….”fuck! I woke up again!! damn it” I was born to do porn but I only suffer in this life. He’s always wearing black some may say but they will never understand the darkness that lurks behind my forced smile. Let me win my medical malpractice lawsuit so I can leave some financial stability to my loved one and then that is it, I am done with this bullshit lie of a life. I just hope that I can last that long, NO more shots, NO more being afraid of my own insulin, NO more sexual addiction, NO more blindness, NO more physical or mental PAIN, NO MORE!!!! I can’t wait…………….
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I would like to say somthing nice, but….
I hope you have a nice Death, becuase you have had a shit life.
I agree with kie250 – go get that shotgun and don’t miss. Make sure you prop it against something because it’s going to kick. Good luck.
Are you completely blind? If so how do you type??
That’s the most fucked thing about it……I have some vision left but just enough to work (lucky me) with provisions in place to keep me from messing up. EVERYTHING I loved to do is now gone. The central vision in my right eye is gone for good and the vision in my left eye is fucked up to. I can see someone, or a car or building….. I just can’t see who they are, what they are etc…. It’s a whole new level of hell on earth, that’s all I can say……it sucks BAD.