Honestly, I’m scared to die. I’m scared to live.
Everyday I try to kill the thing inside me. I’ve felt like I’ve died on the inside and I’m in autopilot. My grades suck because I’ve stopped trying. My parents think that I’m making bad grades because it’s a teenage thing. Open your eyes, I’m extremely suicidal. I have to paint a smile on my face everyday for everyone, it stops all the questions. I’ve never had a real friend before, one that actually cared. I just want someone to talk to about all this.
Skype: rachel_andress
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about 2 months ago, lasting like a year and a half, what you just typed down describes EXACTLY my situation. I’ve gotten very VERY good at faking any type of emotion and i’ve become very efficient at lying.
same thing about the friend situation. I still don’t have one. I recently started to feel better for no reason though; give it a little time!
and i don’t have skype, yet, but if you want to e-mail me it’s JTfreeze1234@aim.com
I’m in the same boat. Struggling with no will to live, but yet i’m so scared to die. I am jealous of people with that courage. feel free to email me if you need a friend to talk to: ktruslow@gmail.com
I feel the same way most of the time, though I do have a very few close friends. Sometimes finding a friend who will understand what you’re going through and won’t judge you is hard, and takes a long time, but if you do happen upon someone like that, don’t let go.
I also can never figure out which of my fears is greater, living or dying… But at least try to make the best of your situation. Maybe something is being miscommunicated, and only seems like people don’t care. I know I care, though I hardly know anyone on this site. But I still care for the people like me who just can’t handle this thing called “life”.
If you ever want to talk, I’m here. blackswan1661@gmail.com
I am also the same except I feel that I never smile I also do not have any true friends other than liars and *ssh*les but yeah I feel the same I want to try at school but I have no motivation or willpower at all. I’ve never had a gf, fallen in and out of love, best friend’s a dog and a kid I met on call of duty. I sit all day listening to music and daydreaming. I take crap from others and get frustrated easily. I feel like I have ADD and I know I have major depression.(I am so off topic ain’t I, or am I?) anyways I know how you feel
Thanks guys! Sorry I’m getting back to you so late, I’ve just been feeling really down. I still feel horrible. I dont even feel like It’s worth trying.
Email me: andressr96@gmail.com