I grew up an orphan. My father has long been buried and, last I heard, my mother is crazy to a degree I wish never to emulate. After returning from my first deployment overseas, I learned I was never “intended” in the first place. I am caught up in a divorce where my wife has gone above and beyond the call of duty to makemy life a little slice of hell. I cannot find employment and the contract work I was doing is now over. I am broke, busted and disgusted with life in general. Even if I do get passed this-how long until I have to go through it again? Six months? A year if I’m lucky. I truly feel the only way to fix this problem of life is to end it. I have no more resources. More than that, I haven’t the inclination to continue this battle. Maybe I should just take a hint and leave this place.
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Hi 🙂 i know what your going through
you’re not the only one <3
sympathy is a big word
im only 15 but ive been through most of this and i am studying phycology specifically sucidel thoughts at a college level (excuse me for my spelling not the greatest speller in the world 🙂 )
let see you're broke.
-you can go online research:
sorry it got posted before i was ginished anyways:
*finished
ha oh how the computer plays tricks anyways
– my dad came here with $10 dollars in his pocket and he didnt know how to speak english
he worked at burger king, while sleeping on the park bench to making his way to earn enough money to get a place to stay get educationa nd eventually start a family. He know owns 15 apartments and his business goes great
– you can maybe get a loan to find a place to stay and get education to get a new job 🙂
– or you can go to a freind and ask them to help out
– ask the goverment
0 get a loan for somewhere to sleep and education then pay back the loan when you get a good job
-maybe you dont want to deal with the financial part for now
-talk to your wife about the problems that you are having discuss, discuss, discuss
and finally give yourslef a break.
-have a vaction for yourslef where you can relax for a while to think about things and get back on track 🙂
(dont do drugs or alcohol though, that will mess you up even more and affect you physically as well mentally. Some people think it makes the pain go away but it actually makes it go away for a few minutes then comes back even harder, youll have yourself stuck if you do.)
and if you already drink alchohl or drugs try lessining your intake 🙂 try quiting
– go to church and ask them questions to helpo you our about life not nessecairy to beleive in god though if you dont and e=if you do weel thats great 🙂
-like i said again give yourself away from all the stress i know what it might be like to be an orphan my freinds were orphans and i would live their lives everyday
sicide was an awful thing
my freind commited suicide
and he might not know it but he was the love of my life and he just left that traumatized me greatly (R.I.P)
being an orphan rises stress (sorry if im being to dramatic an dusing the word *orphan) 🙂
the world is cruel but you have to fuind your ways out of it death is not an option
– go to a comedy house make yourself laugh
– if relationships arent working out for you go have some fun 😉 lol :3
-GIVE YOURSELF A BREAK 😀
go to New york just for the hell of it, just to expierience
i had a freind (who is very old but still i freind i think hes 27 now xP)
he didnt make it through college,, it was too difficult for him but he still knew what he wanted to become and theat was to own his own music store. Well he opened it up in New york now and business is goign great he loves wkaing up in the mornings and working around music ^^ chasing dreams is an option so go for it 🙂 *** luck <3
and email me at: schoolisawsomexP@hotmail.com if you need to talk :p
sorry for the terrible life.. sounds like u have been thru ruff patches…..so have i. i think i have gone thru too much no 16 yr old should go thru..
email: lilmex95@gmail.com