I live in London and want to end my life using H2s, but I need someone who has the ingredients and knows how to do it (or alternatively a gun) I’m quite desperate.
It’s got to the point where I see no reason to live, any positive thoughts about the future are shortlived, because I can’t spend it with the one person I wanted to. Without her, the process of living seems mundane. I wanted to travel the world, to try a thousand new experiences, but without her, it just wouldn’t be the same. Without her I see my future more clearly – I’ll be alone, in a job I hate, and watching my body slowly deteriorate with age. Surely it is better to go out now, with all the good times fresh in my memory.
Please help
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There’s something I fail to understand about suicide, but I don’t mean to confuse you. I’ve been depressed for quite some time, and I, like so many others, see no point in life itself. But why suicide?
I suppose I should rephrase my question. Why us? We are the sufferers in silence. We are the brothers and sisters who share a very important thing with one another: truth. We see the world for what it is.
Some of us accept it. Those of us that do tend to linger on, usually in misery. Why they do so is beyond me, so please understand that I’m not saying you shouldn’t kill yourself.
But WE refuse it. We deny this world the pleasure of torturing us. We commit ourselves to nothingness, prematurely ending our undeserved pain. We all feel the same feelings. We are not alone, and I’m saying that WE shouldn’t kill ourselves.
We are a group of men and women, boys and girls, all of us dedicated to the ugly truth that this world is nothing but a shell of what it could be. The world is a fucked up place. Why is it that the ones who admit that fact are the ones who get left behind?
Maybe we should all just kill ourselves. But evolutionary instincts tell us not to. I say FUCK instincts. But think about that for a moment. If we have the power to kill ourselves, we have the power to defy our instincts. This means that we have the power to effectively ignore the most powerful driving force on the face of this planet: the drive to live. Doesn’t that make us more powerful than all the stupid bastards who think it’s worth it to keep going?
I say we use that power. People don’t understand that this world is a wasteland. I don’t think they ever will. They’ll cling to their instincts like a child to its mother’s breast, never letting go of the foolish notion that life is beautiful. We can show them what they don’t see. We have the power to fuck this world like it’s fucked us. And if we use that power, we just might be able to rid ourselves of the very people that make our species as fucked up as it is.
I’m not saying we should commit murder. Who knows, though? Maybe we should.
What I’m saying is that we KNOW something. Living – at least as we do today – sucks. This is something that the rest of the world won’t accept, but perhaps it hasn’t been presented in a way they can understand. You see, we are BETTER than them. We understand what they don’t, won’t, or cant. And we just might be able to fix them.
They won’t thank us. They won’t praise us. And they won’t apologize for shitting on us. But it would at least catch them up to speed. With all the world understanding and accepting that human beings need to change their ways, things might actually change. If everyone on the face of the planet stopped pretending they were alone and actually started voicing themselves, we might actually be able to make progress.
There are some things we can’t control. Diseases. Accidental, unfortunate deaths of loved ones. Pain would still exist. But we, brothers and sisters, DO HAVE POWER. And I say we band together and fucking use it.
Let’s try to save this world. It’s clear that no one else is doing it correctly. And if the world refuses us still…if, in the face of unbending truth, the rest of our species still denies us…I say we burn this planet to its core.
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please, stop the spamming.
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@hopeless 84
Hello,
If 84 is your year of birth, then there is a lot of good in it. You are very young and have a billion of a time to do anything and enjoy.
The subject you mention is one of my favourites as I have been number one sufferer in precisely that kind of thing and therefore I fully relate to how you view, perceive and sense things, projects, etc.
At this moment, you are actually and truly believing that there is no point in anything because she is not with you etc and no matter what anybody tells you now, you cannot view it other way. However, the fact that you truly view it like that, does not mean that you are right and that that is an objective truth. Today you are sure it will be like that forever, and tomorrow probably too and so for the next coming days. In the meantime you just need to carry on doing your ordinary things, even if you dont really feel like doing anything. One day, a spark of good will make you feel better a little bit, and then again a little bit more a few days later. It is actually the time doing the work for you.
The emotional associations you have of the past are just the result of the deprivation that you feel now versus the times when you received those positive imputs like company, dialog, sex etc and now it is a sort of abstinence syndrome, that you have.
Some people take those blows in a very balanced way and are not affected, even if they were truly enamorated. Others, experience devastating blows of their emotions and tear their clothes in sadness. You may be one of the last profiles, but even so, they get over and so will you.
best greetings
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If spamming, by definition, is just repeating yourself over and over to different audiences each time…then yes, I am spamming.
But unlike most spammers, I actually have a worthwhile goal.
Your post indicates that you’ve got a clear desire to help people. I’m with that 100% – at least helping the people that need it. That’s why I posted in the first place.
And, if you noticed, I stopped commenting the same thing on other people’s posts and made my own.
But you seem to have a capable mind, so I’ll get to the point. There is a fine line between people who just like to complain and people who actually want some sort of progressive action. You know, of course, that people who actually commit suicide are doing so because they feel, for whatever reason, that suicide is the best course to take. Those that don’t either WERE suicidal and changed – OR were never suicidal to begin with. You must know how common it is – with suicide being one of the leading causes of death – that people actually WANT to take action.
I’m offering (or at least trying to offer) these people (and, really, myself) something better than a useless death. I’m trying to offer these people the knowledge that they have the power to help make a change in this world. If they still want to commit suicide even knowing that, then it’s really not my department. I’m no savior. You can give yourself that title, if it suits you.
But know that I’m not here to troll, argue, or spam uselessly. I’m here to ask a very simple and still unanswered question.
Why aren’t we getting together and doing something about it?