my name is victor my age 17 my life lost
1 was born addicted to meth as a child and was adopted into a none compatable family in my mind i was singled out so i always felt alone and grew up to trust know one and so in jr. high i became very ………dark and started to cut my self 4 times i ended up in the hospital for attempted suicide i suceeded 2 then i fell in love with a girl whos eyes can turn stars jouluse and a heart filled with love i dated her 6 months her name trinda she tryed to help me stop with my cutting and i turned it down over and over agian but the sad thing is i never knew it i loved her and when she told me lets be friend i knew i could never just be friends with her andeven though she tore out my heart she showed that cuting took everything my family my friends ……my love.and even though we ‘ve broken up i never refer to her as an ex girlfriend i consider her my first love i am still willing to take bullet for her even if she wont look at me let alone talk about me but i refused to beileve she doesnt think of me even if its bad thoughts she still thinks a bout me i learned at a very young age that to be forgiven you need to forgive the one who hurt you and more inportent fogive your self i am here i am i live because i had pushed through the piont of death yet i feel empty and i need some one to under stand
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I do understand. Understanding hurt brought on by the ones you love. She did want to help you. Maybe she still does (that’s if you’re still having problems?) or you can just call her up. Go talk to her. Do something with her. Let her know that you want her back (if you still do). She is your first love, and there will be other loves for some of us.
Maybe if you talk to her something and ask her for her help. Let her know you’ve gained the will to let her help you make the change from cutting (try not to pick up on anymore self-harming habits).
More power to you, victor cm. Love does go on. Whether anyone else knows it or not.
Dude I know exactly now you feel. I’ve been though the same thing but a little worse. I got back stabbed thrice! And I’m only 14. Just be happy you experienced love. It’s the best thing but cause us men to go crazy. If u need any help or advice u can contact me a cpow206@gmail.com