Im in the mood to cut.
Cold  Razor Blade.
Seriously, Telling myself no
But I hate feeling
feeling Stressed, Upset and hopeless.
I want 2 cut again, but after
I regret it. I cut then After…. Totally Hate that I did it.
Feeling more misunderstood & Hopeless right about now..  What’s wrong with me?
Y can’t I be normal? Be Happy all
the fucking time?
I need an answer and no one is here.
Fuck It.
5 comments
Self inflicted pain doesn’t make you happy? makes me feel like a million bucks, unprecedented euphoric feeling that lasts for hours, you know that feeling…. that tingly feeling down your spine, like that…all over your body mmmmmm self destruction is the indestructible key to happiness. Fuck it is right, fuck everything
I do like Self Inflicted Pain it’s like a rush to me (I soooo know the feeling your talking about. Trust.) , but I keep going… Like cut after cut after cut after cut after cut and after I feel like Shit. Like fucking stupid to do it. Like I said I regret it afterwards.
it has a band aid effect on me. i love the control… but it’s a temporary solution… then i feel just as fucked up as ever when it’s over.
Ok bluewolk i think you got some issuess i think you need some counseling to help your ass from boucing off the wall then you get down some. I just don’t whant you to do no crazy shit.
I do not cut and I never have cut so what I am going to say may be completely wrong… if it is disregard it completely, im not trying to be ignorant just trying to help 🙂 …… if you regret cutting after you cut but in the moment that you feel like cutting, it seems like the best thing for you to do maybe there is something else you could do that would give you a rush but not hurt you? Maybe the rush is like an adrenaline rush and it releases chemicals in your body and that is why you feel better afterwards. Try and focus the energy that you use to cut and put it into something that would be rewarding and not regretted after you do it. I dont know if that helps at all and I know its not as easy as Im trying to make it seem but experiment and see if there is anything that could possibly help you avoid it… hope anything i said helps :/ goodluck!