Tonight is another lonely night for me. Ma Sleeping on Couch. Me Disgusted with myself and feeling sick all over again. Sick of myself, the way I continue to live my life. Â I’m sick of My Â appearance, MyÂ attitude, My feeling ofÂ overwhelmingÂ stress and the feeling of what path to walk down. I am stuck at a crossroad, Of who I want to be and whoÂ I’mÂ meant to be. Â I am Not feeling suicidal at the moment, like many other moments, but Is life worth living if you aren’t happy or feeling Â fulfillment? Why am I not happy? I want to be normal. Normal seems like a word that most people wouldn’t want to be labeled, But I wonder sometimes… Who am I? What In life am I supposed to Do? How and why this & that… Soo Many questions, No answers. I understand I’m Young, But I feel that time itself is moving without me. The universe Forgetting that I everÂ existed. Not giving a Damn. It’s like I’m walking in a desert feeling sorry for myself and nothing or no one remembersÂ me.Â Â People Die & are reborn, So, why care about me? Â It’s the cycle of Live . I want to Believe in Something. Something that…. Believe’s in me also, Something that I can have so called “Faith” about. Am I wrong not to believe in God? Or if not to believe have the Fear of what will happen if I do start toÂ believe? I wish Answers were given asÂ easilyÂ as questions are questioned.