Hey everyone it’s Silent23 again. I’m fairly new to this website and it’s helping me a lot. Ok today I am going to vent.
So I really like this girl, more like love her to death, but we are just friends and she has a bf who got in trouble with the law for doing drugs or something of the sort. She used to be a big druggy and now she has been clean for a couple months(for as much as I know) and I really want the best for her. You know, I listen to her, I am always there for her, I care about her and so much more. I would do anything for her. Her other friends are not like me at all. They do drugs and go to parties and shit. I’m just her sad deppresed friend. I vent to her a lot and I know sometimes it can feel annoying for her, but it just feels like when ever I am sad or mad she just says “Oh I’m sorry” and brushes it off. I have very deep feelings for her and maybe it’s because I havn’t dated in years, but I don’t know what to do. Should I continue our friendship or not? I used to get jealous around her when she was around her friends. I guess you can say I had a rough childhood and I always needed to be loved and comforted. I don’t get that anymore. I havn’t had a hug in years and I am a very emotional person. I have a quick temper and when I’m angry I usually turn to self-harm. I just want to dissapear….