I have the oxycodone sitting in a drawer in my room and almost everyday i think about taking those pills. I fell so hollow inside. My chest cavity holds only my unhappiness. I know i cant do this to my mother though. My brothers wouldnt care. My older brother told me he hated me today and called me a piece of shit. The look in his face looked like he wanted to kill me. I dont feel like doing anything. Nothing makes me happy anymore. I think i might do this. I cant take this anymore. Ever since my parents got divorced and I switched schools and moved to a new house. I hate everyone at my school. I feel like im being stabbed every day. The pain of dying would be less than the pain i feel every second that I am alive. I want to die.
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I’m so sorry about your family. You deserve better. Maybe if you decide to live, you can move out and start a better family.
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Take a good look at those pills and throw them away. Sometimes people say and do hurtful things they don’t mean. I get that emptiness too. It hurts. And it seems like the only way to fill up the emptiness is to look to drugs. But hey, God can fill up your unhappiness. He wants to take all your pain and restore you with true happiness. God loves you so very much, do not kill yourself. He has so many other things for you to live for.