I am 18 years old and realized along time ago that I hate my life, nothing to me is beautiful anymore, I only see the ugly things that life has proudly offered me, We have destroyed this world, so why not I do the world a favor and leave, then at least thats one person that everyone has to worry about, I know I’m just in the way anyways. I simply just don’t belong here, I hear everyone talk about how things will get better, why don’t they tell that to that man that lives on the street that they all ignore. why is it that people will tell someone that things will get better and when it is apparent that it won’t, they act as if they never existed? People are so despicable, I can’t live here anymore, I hate it here.
But for some reason I’m still here, The act of killing myself  is not the problem, its my fucking family! I just keep imagining their faces as they walk in to seem my lifeless corps. they would think I was the Crazy one. You have to be Fucking crazy to continue living in this chaotic lie we call this world,. I don’t live in a place where the grass is green and the sky is blue, I live where trash fills the fields, the streets are cracked, the buildings  burned down, and the very kids I grew up with have made me afraid to be outside after dark.
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Life is just Life.. as simple as that.
Humans kept saying “things will get better” because *HOPE* is always inherent for our survival instinct.
Hope in religions, hope for our world leaders to clean the mess & all the sick corruptions, hope in God, hope in people, hope for other people, and so on..
Little that we know that Reality simply just IS.
I’ve learned this the hard way too..
But,..upon looking and thinking deeper,
that *HOPE* that is inherent in each of us, humans, is actually a SPARK,
a spark so strong, that is needed to CREATE a needed Change,
a spark so strong, so that we can CONNECT with other souls who still have *HOPE* left too.
Together we are always more stronger than alone individually.
It’s just Life’s nature.
so I’ll say: expect less of this world,..but know that *HOPE* is still not all lost.
Heck, the world IS progressing, and humans are always learning and discovering things,..although yes humans is a slow learner.
But the world IS always changing.
Progress is always being made, whether in our generation, or next generation, or the next 100th generations.
But what really does matter is for each of us, to contribute our part.
Just simply BE.
if you don’t like something, then use that *HOPE* and create a change.
this life *could* be a gift, that death won’t ever offer to us..
it’s all depends on *how* we use it, and view it..