Hello I am a 39 year old woman that really hates life. I seem to be stuck in a deep depression and everyday it gets worse. I feel like the biggest failure in the world. I have been divorced now 4 years and just got out of a terrible relationship with a guy I loved very much. I tried to move on and I just cannot get him out of my mind. I have been treated so badly by men that I am scared to even go out with another man. I tried going out with my friend one night and I made the mistake of staying behind in the bar and I am pretty positive that a guy put something in my drink. That night I was brutally raped by a man. I have been thinking about killing myself ever since that night. Plus, I have a boss that always down grades me and treats me like crap. I have tried to look for a new job but in Florida there is not to many jobs out there. I loved my ex-boyfriend very much but he treated me like crap and would not work for a living. I have worked since I was 15 years old and I am to the point that I do not even want to get out of bed anymore. Is me taking my life going to help anything at all? I am to the point that I hate this world we live in. I am tired of being down graded, mistreated, and called bad names by friends and co-workers. All my life all everyone has ever done is make fun of me and call me bad names. I have always been nice to everyone unless they push my buttons to much. I cannot concentrate on anything in life anymore. Everyday I say a pray to God to take me but it has not happened yet. I do not honestly know why I am here. If this is living then I would rather be dead. I have already wrote my suicide note and I would like to do this as soon as possible.
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think about what your doing all the people that is going to miss you. maybe guys arent what you need right now and at this time you need to heal from your wounds talk to someone. and see if things change get a different job or move somewhere else somewhere you’ve always wanted to go.
I know the feeling. All I can say is ‘chin up’, things sometimes tend to seem hopeless but I guarantee you the life can be beautiful. My mother who is 46 has found love again after been beaten and emotionally abused for most of her adult life. She is my inspiration and the best role model I have. I’m not attempting to disregard your pain., I know what it’s like to feel helpless and ask God to take you away. I just hope that you find the peace and motivation to continue:)
Hi there i just want to speak i may seem abit harsh or brute at times. i just want to say take a educated gamble in life if things can not get anyworse you have nothing to lose. do not let people walk all over you. Men more to the point. if you cant love and respect yourself how can otherpeople love and respect you. i was walked all over for a longtime only now have a found my voice. you must find yours. if you feel like it. monday morning go give your boss a big F-U and tell him what he realy is. you might be short of money but you will not have any loss of pride. im not a very goodlooking man. but i reconise inner beauty.. and im sure there are a few others out there to.. babe you need to take a chance in life. if you stay in your cage how can you explore stand up big up and take controlle. asfar as i am conercened your a lovely soft person who just needs to get back up on the horse. you can be nice to people but you cant be walked all over and if you do come across a horrible person let them no maybe you can teach them something about being nice. well done for being good in a bad world i respect you to the full. god is with you but he gives you what you need not what you want.. i hope i didnt cause any offence there was none intended.. also im very ashamed of the man who did that to you.. but he will get whats coming..
take a chance doesnt look like its possible to regret
I TO feel Suicide is it the best answer been wanting to end my life for 10 years im 48 years old and hope to end my life soon
I’m sorry, I know how you feel *hugs* at 38 I’m not far behind you and feel just as lonely, broken and sick and tired of this fucked up world. So whatever you do honey I sincerely hope that you find your peace…
Huh idk why life has to suck so much, if there is a god then he’s a sadist…
Sorry just one more thing, I disagree with people who say that suicide is morally wrong and a permanent solution to a temporary problem. The fact is that if we find ourselves in a no win situation and are at our wits end and all other options have been exhausted we should have the right to take that drastic step of last resort because then suicide is the last, ultimate and most important act of self-determination we have left over our lives…
Sorry just one more thing, I disagree with people who say that suicide is morally wrong and a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
The fact is that if we find ourselves in a no win situation and are at our wits end and all other options have been exhausted we should have the right to take that drastic step of last resort because then suicide is the last, ultimate and most important act of self-determination we have left over our lives…
Sorry I repeated that ^ idk why I did it…