One a day is just not right. Wanting to watch it drip down my arm, but screaming at myself to stop is definitely not right. Cutting in the first place isn’t right. But what do you do ? No one will fully understand what you’re going through, and when you find those people there are always going to be complications. Like being scared they will leave, being even more scared they will give up hope on you, being mostly scared they will do something, because they care too much. So one by one the complications arise, typical of me to be so insecure. But i have had bullying issues in the past, that explain that.
Do you ever fully understand ? Or do your words come out wrong, or simply don’t know what to say ? When your best friend tells you that you live to watch the blood drip out of your arm, once a day, everyday. When your best friend is slightly going crazy, or sounding emo, without wanting to. Do you ?
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do you want to talk? you seem pretty confused to me…i am depressed too and i am ready to listen if you want to. let me know…
You shout try to find methods of stopping. Cutting for you seems like its painkillers, do it too much and u get addicted. Cutting in the first place is wrong, but at the worst of times it is the only way, and I know that. The only way for me to be able to make you stop is for me to be you, and have complete access to your mind. I guess what I’m saying is, the best way to stop is yourself. But I’m always here to talk if you need to.
xox
@T_0conf_1 confused is one way of putting it, i dont know why i could be so depressed when not much has really happened to me compared to others.
@scoo96
Yeah it is like that, its like ill be trying to distract myself, but all i can think of its whats lying in the draw next to me, that pair of scissors.
Not having anyone to talk to, and being stuck in a house with 3 pain in the necks, doesn’t really help. But i can talk to you, which is really good. And i do understand that the only way i can stop, is realising its wrong. And i’m trying.
xox