Pretty much all day I’ve been researching methods and LD50’s of easy-to-get poisons. My head feels like it’s gonna explode with all this information so I figured I’d ask for some help. I’ve researched loads of stuff, from eucalyptus oil to methyl salicylate, nail polish (lol…) and petrol. I checked out paracetomol but idk if i can do that again, last time i did and I failed and it wasn’t pleasant, maybe if I increased the dose it’d work. Truthfully, ODing on something won’t be the only method. I need it to work, I can’t face hospital/psych ward again. So… I plan on taking a bunch of things, then jumping and if I have the strength (and if I’m still alive) stabbing/cutting when I hit the ground. I’ve looked at Helium too, but that’d be too complicated with my parents around. Haha… yesterday I was looking at my fan in my room and thought of taking off the cover, turning it on and putting my neck on the fan. Too bloody (don’t get me wrong, i’m a crazy horror fanatic, just don’t want my parents to see it/clean it up or whatever). That’s how desperate I am.
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please dont kill yourself. i dont know whats troubleing do you want to talk about it?
thanks for the offer, but nah i don’t really wanna talk about it. i’ve made up my made about death and somehow, i don’t think anything is going to change that. like i said, thanks anyway :). Oh and what about you? do you need to talk at all, coz i’m here if you need to.
may i at least ask what made you turn to suicide? i really want to help you
ok well i have severe depression, ocd and social anxiety. my parents also think i’m borderline. i left school a few years ago (didn’t complete it) because i hated it and i have no friends. whilst i was in school i developed unreal feelings which have in turn made me pretty much not give a damn about anything. someone could murder my parents or a family member and i wouldn’t care. there’s more to it than that, but they’re just the basics i guess.
if you need a friend ill be your friend. we’re not so different. so please reconsider. suicide is not the way to go.
you’re very kind :). I really appreciate it. i probably won’t do it for a little while, so i guess that does give me time to reconsider.
please do. if you ever want to talk feel free to contact me -whybother321@gmail.com stay strong
Hey hun are you okay? I feel the exact same way and we actually have alot of the same problems are you the chick from melbourne 16 years old?
yep that’s me. i’ll be alright for now. what about you?
Hmm not great 🙁 So is anyone helping you are you on any meds or are you having therapy do you have a good family, friends?
sucks that you don’t feel that good :(, wish i could help. yeah actually i had therapy today lol, i go once a week and have family sessions every 2 weeks. i am on meds which help a bit with the ocd stuff but not much else. my family is pretty good, got a rocky relationship with my mum though, goes up and down allll the time, and i haven’t got any friends.
I dont really have any friends either girls are so bitchy dont worry bout them im usually with my sisters do you have any siblings? Oh and i’ll be you friend 🙂
haha some girls can be pretty bitchy. i have a half sister and half brother. talk more to my sis than my bro, but even that isn’t much. mostly i just stay locked up on my room on the computer all day. thanks for being my friend :P, if you ever wanna talk i’m here, don’t hesitate to ask.
Yeah sometimes being around my sisters isn’t much they have they’re own lives and have no idea about my problems and your not the only one thats a hermit locked up in her room on the computer i am too thats all i ever do! You sound like such a sweet girl god life can be a fucken *****! I just wish i was never born 🙁
yeah i know what you mean about not wanting to have been born. it’s funny coz i think my mum had a fair few miscarriages before me and i just happened to be the one that didn’t miscarriage. she’d have been luckier with another one i think :S.
Im sure she loves you no matter what its just hard for them cause they dont understand i think they start to think that they did something wrong and thats why you are the way you are unless people have gone through it or are going through it like have suffered from mental illness they really dont get it they have no idea what its like
Have you watched the animated-movie “Happy Feet” ?
You should (even must). ‘cuz it seems like your current condition and problems now.
You may learn a lot from the movie.
I learnt a lot.
Have you ever thought about hanging yourself or jumping off a cliff? I’m considering that…should be a sure way to go without much pain.
@lost in darkness and darkloner74: hanging yourself is definitely not the way to go without pain! if you don’t hang yourself correctly (as in your neck snaps and that’s painless i guess,) you could be dangling there ALIVE for up to maybe 10 minutes choking, wheezing and in pain.