I found this site in an temp to find a reasonable means of a very thought out conscious decision made… what I found was much different. Most I can relate to. We all have our down moments, which is obvious most on this site has had his or hers in their own fashion. Mine is simply everything lost by others hands, one being my ex wife. It’s been over three years now and everything has taken full circle. As much as I have tried to move on with the grueling task of day to day life, I have found myself in a position where everything has been removed. Three and a half years ago I had a house, business and the whole world in front of me. My ex had gotton involved with a new business partner and I left. After putting up with years of harassment from the two of them, they are no more, the business is gone along with my house. Pretty much everything I worked and prided myself on for the better part of my adult life. She literally pissed everything away and still takes no responcability for any of it. My credit is gone. My home is gone. My business is gone, and I still have to deal with what I now see as a money hungry whore that has just moved on to the next victim. This has been quit a road to tow. Suicide may be an easy way out but in reality, it has been a thought for some time now. Sometimes people just feel the need. I’ve been in court for nearly as long as I’ve been divorced…. trying to do the right thing. Unfortunately, me doing the right thing spindles on my ex doing the right thing. Just recently I’ve learned that will never happen. So what’s left. I can’t live a life full of lies warped around other lies. As much as I can try to have the truth, its up to others to want the same. This world is full of lies and people are more worried about saving face. So what’s left?!?!