When is the time to commit suicide?

I think tonight I will ask my mum if she’d be willing to do it with me. I know that I am her only reason she carries on life, she told me it many times. And I would’ve killed myself long, long ago if mum wasn’t so dear to me. So we both are our only reasons to live and we both wanna die.
So why wouldn’t we both die?

I am a total failure. I have failed my own suicide many times, c’mon failed on failing? Lol. I’ve been struggling with school and hardly gotten through, every teacher hates me for I try to be a good student and then am lots and lots away from lessons. I’ve got pretty much responsibilities at school and I’ve failed like all my duties.
I just am a failure.

I’ve been depressed since I was 10, so it’s been over seven years. Nothing ever helped, nothing at all. I’ve been on medication and

What the hell am I doing? I’m explaining to you, how pathetic I am, trying to find acception for me committing suicide – instead of doing it.

I just faild again. Well anyway, I’m asking today if mum wants to do it with me or shall I just do it alone. So I hope this’ll be my last post here, hope everything good to you guys. Do your lifes better than I did, I’m sure you can!