Yeah i know what you mean and this is gonna sound weird but like sometimes i sit there and i can feel my heart beating hard and fast and i think well my hearts still beating so im still alive but yet i feel like im already dead
this site is addictive. I feel like i can type whatever i’m thinking. then it’s weird to find out that other people have had the same thought. know what i mean?
You can give someone your heart and you give them your life and they choose to break it, it hurts so much. You know you would do anything for them but they wouldn’t do the same. I don’t know how to make the feeling go away and I have ended up on antidepressants but I wish you all the best in your healing.
I know what you mean. Some people are just like that. In minutes and seconds, they can forget all about what you’ve done for them or the time you spent together and just ignore you. I didn’t try antidepressants, so I’m not gonna be healing. Just finding a good way to end my life. I know the pain from how someone breaks your heart. Even if it’s not a lover, but just a friend or a family member.. it can be devastating. I’ve had everyone done that to me. I wish you the best with your healing and improving.
Since you’re trying to live, good luck. I’m sure you can do it if you really want to. If you don’t feel well, just talk to the people here. I can help you too as best as I can until the day I die too if you want.
To be honest I don’t know if I want to live, I have been trying to convince myself life without her is worth it and I have tried so hard but all I have done is go around in circles aparantly the drugs might change that so we’ll see. I wish you the best with whatever the future has for you.
I know how that feels to lose a girl before. I can understand how you can go in circles. If you need help with it or how to deal with it, just ask me. idk if I can help you for sure or not, but I can try if you want to live.
As for me, like I said, I have no future. I’m looking up ways to die to end it. I wish you the best with your future and about moving on.
When you have a goal in life or a purpose, you can live to try to acquire that and accomplish it.
When you don’t want to live anymore, then you’ll want to die like me.
There are lots of ways to convince yourself to live, if you truly want to live then I can help you with that. Or ways to move on when a girl you love leaves you.
Right now I need to just try and get through the present set of troubles. (Read some of my most recent post or google Christchurch earthquake) Then I can try and sort myself out again and hopefuly the pills will help me stop running in theses stupid circles. For now I’m going to take sleeping pill and try and sleep because I have enough of today.
Dear OP(indigo rain) sorry for hijacking your post.
I see. Alright, I’ll try to remember to search for those. I’m still kinda new here myself, not even a week yet here.
I hope you have a good rest and sleep then. If you ever wanna talk, just talk to me here or someone here. I’m sure they’d love to talk to you and help since we can all relate in some way or another.
i don’t mind paul_1991.
i hope it’s my brain chemistry that’s broken and not a sucky reality. brain chemistry can be fixed easier.
for a second i thought you could my sister’s boyfriend, same name and age, but theyre still together…. sorry im not helping….. im such a ruiner
i don’t want to hurt my family either so i probably wont do it, but boy do i really want to. when i get that low, i think of how i would feel if one of my family members died and that usually stops me. i think the best way to kill yourself would be hanging because it wouldn’t take to long and there isn’t really any backing out once the chair or whatever is gone. that also is the one of the ones that scares me the most. 🙁
I know how you feel. I really don’t want to hurt my family but I don’t know how I can keep doing this. I actually have a way to go I am pretty sure about but it requires access to chemicals the public can’t get easily.
chemicals and pills seem like a good way to do it but they are just too hard to get.
this is responding to what you said on my most recent post
that was your post? sad to say i don’t really keep track of what i post. sure i guess we could talk now? deftones are the best or is it tool? i cant decide. lol. i bet lol isn’t typed a lot on this site. cite? i swear i cant spell.
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i feel you there
idk how many times i thought that
Yeah i know what you mean and this is gonna sound weird but like sometimes i sit there and i can feel my heart beating hard and fast and i think well my hearts still beating so im still alive but yet i feel like im already dead
it doesnt sound weired but i get the same thing
this site is addictive. I feel like i can type whatever i’m thinking. then it’s weird to find out that other people have had the same thought. know what i mean?
and i don’t have to care what you guys think about me because i will never meet any of you
i guess what i’m saying is that i don’t feel judged, which is a rare occurance
My heart only reminds of what I had and how happy I was, I hate it
@paul_1991: I understand exactly what you mean. I would remember how happy I was before and it only makes me feel worse than I already am feeling.
You can give someone your heart and you give them your life and they choose to break it, it hurts so much. You know you would do anything for them but they wouldn’t do the same. I don’t know how to make the feeling go away and I have ended up on antidepressants but I wish you all the best in your healing.
I know what you mean. Some people are just like that. In minutes and seconds, they can forget all about what you’ve done for them or the time you spent together and just ignore you. I didn’t try antidepressants, so I’m not gonna be healing. Just finding a good way to end my life. I know the pain from how someone breaks your heart. Even if it’s not a lover, but just a friend or a family member.. it can be devastating. I’ve had everyone done that to me. I wish you the best with your healing and improving.
To be honest and still am but I saw how much it would hurt my family so I’m trying antidepressants as a last hope.
Since you’re trying to live, good luck. I’m sure you can do it if you really want to. If you don’t feel well, just talk to the people here. I can help you too as best as I can until the day I die too if you want.
To be honest I don’t know if I want to live, I have been trying to convince myself life without her is worth it and I have tried so hard but all I have done is go around in circles aparantly the drugs might change that so we’ll see. I wish you the best with whatever the future has for you.
I don’t have a real future.
I know how that feels to lose a girl before. I can understand how you can go in circles. If you need help with it or how to deal with it, just ask me. idk if I can help you for sure or not, but I can try if you want to live.
As for me, like I said, I have no future. I’m looking up ways to die to end it. I wish you the best with your future and about moving on.
How do you convince yourself to live when you don’t want to? Is this a consequence of “broken” brain chemistry or is this reality
When you have a goal in life or a purpose, you can live to try to acquire that and accomplish it.
When you don’t want to live anymore, then you’ll want to die like me.
There are lots of ways to convince yourself to live, if you truly want to live then I can help you with that. Or ways to move on when a girl you love leaves you.
Right now I need to just try and get through the present set of troubles. (Read some of my most recent post or google Christchurch earthquake) Then I can try and sort myself out again and hopefuly the pills will help me stop running in theses stupid circles. For now I’m going to take sleeping pill and try and sleep because I have enough of today.
Dear OP(indigo rain) sorry for hijacking your post.
I see. Alright, I’ll try to remember to search for those. I’m still kinda new here myself, not even a week yet here.
I hope you have a good rest and sleep then. If you ever wanna talk, just talk to me here or someone here. I’m sure they’d love to talk to you and help since we can all relate in some way or another.
I hear ya, often I wish my heart would just stop.
i don’t mind paul_1991.
i hope it’s my brain chemistry that’s broken and not a sucky reality. brain chemistry can be fixed easier.
for a second i thought you could my sister’s boyfriend, same name and age, but theyre still together…. sorry im not helping….. im such a ruiner
Dw I’m single and you don’t need to be so hard on yourself your not ruining anything.
thanks
i don’t want to hurt my family either so i probably wont do it, but boy do i really want to. when i get that low, i think of how i would feel if one of my family members died and that usually stops me. i think the best way to kill yourself would be hanging because it wouldn’t take to long and there isn’t really any backing out once the chair or whatever is gone. that also is the one of the ones that scares me the most. 🙁
I know how you feel. I really don’t want to hurt my family but I don’t know how I can keep doing this. I actually have a way to go I am pretty sure about but it requires access to chemicals the public can’t get easily.
that doesn’t sound like a good plan to me
Well I can get them but most people can’t I mean
chemicals and pills seem like a good way to do it but they are just too hard to get.
this is responding to what you said on my most recent post
that was your post? sad to say i don’t really keep track of what i post. sure i guess we could talk now? deftones are the best or is it tool? i cant decide. lol. i bet lol isn’t typed a lot on this site. cite? i swear i cant spell.
Lets just switch the conversation to the other post lol