I need some advice. I am a 17 year old girl attending high school. My life should be amazing, I have been ranked top in my class for the last 5 years, have won numerous awards, play for several sports teams, tutor, part of student government etc etc. But it’s not.
Everyone thinks my life is perfect, but I am dying inside and I don’t know where to turn to. You see, when I was 12, I was looking for my camera in my mom’s room when I came across a box. Of course, being curious, I opened it and found much more than I could expect. Newspaper clippings about my dad being arrested, diary entries about my dad being depressed and a alcoholic, leaving our family in the middle of the night, emails from 16 year old girls saying they had had sex with him. How could this happen? Our family was perfect : Mom, Dad, me and 2 siblings. They don’t know I know..
Then it went downhill, my uncle was killed, my grandmother and grandfather were diagnosed with cancer. We’ve filed for bankruptcy, Dad’s in the hospital for health problems, Mom lost her job, my best friends have been telling to me to die and burning pictures of me. But hey, as long as I smile at school, I am perfect. Nothing is wrong with me.
Then I met a boy, 2 years older. He protected me and was loving and everything I wanted. But like most teen boys, he wanted sex and eventually used me and left me. I am broken.
I really need someone to talk to. Someone to tell me it’ll be okay because I don’t know how long I will be able to hold on.
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I had a similar situation like you. The best thing I can is don’t let your personal life affect your academics. Eventually, all that hard work you put in will have a great outcome and your personal life will get better. I let my personal life affect my school work and now I’m in a deep dark hole with no end in sight. Don’t make that mistake.
I am a 17 year old girl too and I can sooo understand you like wow
Feel free to talk to me I will listen:)
Well, keep these situations aside and yeah… keep doing your best in academics, today may be bad… maybe tomorrow too, but as you are lucky, good in studies… you can wait to get a job and start a new life 🙂
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Just hold on til you get to college, you have only a year or two more, once you’re separated from your family you’ll discover a whole new world to explore. Everything changes in college, the people are smarter and cooler, the teachers are friendlier, and you have so much more control over your life and so many more opportunities to be happy. It WILL be ok!
First of all I have to say, if your so called BEST friends are telling you to die, they are not your friends at all! You don not have to associate yourself with people who want to bring you down. You sound like a smart girl, seperate yourself from them.
I am sorry you found that stuff about your dad. We all like to think our families are perfect. We can be very convincing when we want to. A smile can hide allot. Maybe one day, when you were old enough, your parents were going to tell you. Maybe they kept that to show you so they could be honest with you.
Like Ender said, you do not have long left and you will be able to have your own life. A life where the decisions are no longer made for you if you dont want them to be. A world of possibilities.
I am sorry that you Uncle was killed. Seeing death at a young age is hard. And I am sorry that your grandparents and dad are not well.
Bankruptcy may seem like the end of the world but its not… Its just a chance to start again. When the recession was on in the 90’s my mum and dad struggled, with 4 children, to pay the mortgage. Even with good jobs it was too much for them and they ended up losing our house. They didnt give up though.
Dont give up x