I went to your facebook page and saw the comment you had made where you asked if people were really wishing people luck and telling them how to do it. There are far more people that are trying to convince us not to do it, to hang in there. (However, thank you for your concern and for what you’re trying to do.)
Even if there were people telling us how? That’s why we, at least some of us are here. We WANT to know how to do it, without hope of survivng… especially if we screw up and the method we choose results not in death but in organ damage, such as to our brain.
That’s the only thing that would be worse…
to NOT SUCCEED AND END UP BRAIN DAMAGED AND UNABLE TO FINISH WHAT WE STARTED.
I’m sorry for what you, your mom and siblings have gone through.
I think for the most part no one here wants to cause their loved ones pain, but there comes a point when you’ve fought so long, so much, and so hard that you can’t fight anymore. There comes a point where you’re too tired and you don’t know HOW to fight anymore.
There comes a point when you know you’re going to do it.
There comes a point when you know you’re going to die.
There comes a point when you know… its only a matter of time.
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Thank you for going to my group but Im sorry I have to dissagree with some of what you have said.
Never say never. We cannot predict the future, tomorrow is always a new day. Would you fight to keep someone you love alive??? Would you ever give up on that fight?? If not, why give up on the most important person? You?
It makes me so sad… As you have seen I have been on the recieving end of suicide and it has ripped a hole in me that will never be filled.
I understand if you wanted to do it, you want to know the best way. But if someone is alive enough to tell you on here how to do it successfully then surely they have not proven that fact. I am not trying to be funny with you, all I want to do is help.
May I ask how old you are? Im sorry for your pain, but I have been where you are and I have come out the other side. Dont get me wrong, I still have days where it seems too much and the slightest little thing reduces me to tears, but I have my family and friends to live for and I dont know what my life has in store for me xxx
i see what both of you are saying. I know that there is always that time I just try to prolong mine. Mayb we should try that but who knows maybe its just time.
Of course it is just a matter of time before we die, its a fact of life. But it doesnt have to be premature.
Things can get better, I am poof of that, and no one said it was going to be easy. We have to fight for what we want in all walks of life so why cant we fight for a better life. We make the choices that lead us on the paths in our lives… if it isnt working, change the choices.. do something different, move away, start again… its not to late. x
@Charlotte… you SHOULD prolong it, as long as you can. In fact do everything in your power to get out of this and find your way. Do WHATEVER you can not to give up. If there’s ANY OTHER POSSIBLE WAY YOU NEED TO FIND IT!
@hollyb… I AM NOT THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON, I’M A FAILURE AND I HATE MYSELF!
As far as if someone is alive, then they don’t know how to tell me/us how to do it successfully… there are thousands of people that commit suicide, maybe someone knows someone who was “successful.” What method did they use? For example, you know firsthand that hanging is a viable method. Correct? So just because someone knows a way doesnt mean they have to be dead for it to be valid information.
As far as how old I am… I’m a 42 yr. old female from the eastern part of the US. I have a husband, 21 yr old son, 18 yr old daughter.
(The family dog died in August)
I cannot move away, I cannot start over. I’m stuck in what was supposed to be a temporary job to get some bills paid off and save money to go back to school. However after doing an Algebra review course and not being able to concentrate I’ve had to come to the realization that I’m stuck in this dead end job that I hate and now have no hope of getting out of.
I never thought going back to school would be a problem… I did honors and Advanced Placement classes through school. Now however, I just can’t focus. I’ve sunk sooooo far and I just can’t get up.
And yes, before you ask, I’ve tried counseling, currently going 3 times a week. It was 5, there just isn’t anything he can do. I can’t get past this…. thing where my brain freezes or I zone out. I’ve tried meds for it and they were making me fall asleep at work. I’ve tried anti-depressants also and they also made me sleepy. I feel like I’m always dreaming, like I’m a robot being controlled remotely or in someone elses body.It’s called depersonalization disorder, knowing it has a name helps but doesn’t take care of the problem. I feel like I’m losing my mind.
And I’m running out of time.
Yes my dad hung himself and yes it worked but I know of people where it hasnt and all it did was starve their brain of oxygen… you can imagine the kind of life, or lack of, they have now.
Me and my partner were talking about this last night… what may work for some doesnt for others… Most of the time you think its a sure thing but can end up going horribly wrong.
I know things can change… I saw my mum where you are… I have been there too.. I know that feeling of being a robot, being controlled by others. Dreaming the days away and not realising it. Walking and talking like a zombie, no concentration, not being able to proccess your own thoughts…
I have been there.
I am not going to preach about councellors either.. they didnt work fr me and pills made me numb, although for a long time I depended on them to get me up.
I have wanted to end this life and have been at the stage where its not that I dont care who gets hurt, but not having the power to care, but I have also been on the recieving end and know that killing myself would be killing my family too. x