I thought I was going somewhere with my life. I was depressed and had ADD all the way from 3rd grade until when I graduated high school. I got a job, I started taking classes at a community college for radiology. I’ve decided, I don’t think I can work in health care. I like studying science and biology, but to be a health care professional you have to be empathetic and mentally stable (and in radiology, you have to lift patients, which means you have to be somewhat strong.) I am NONE of those things. I don’t know what I’m going to do if I don’t get a job in health care. my passions are also art and music, but there are no jobs in those fields (unless you want to teach, which I don’t.) I’m so scared and depressed at this point, and I can’t concentrate on anything. School today was bad, I was so unfocused in psych that I couldn’t read, and I was about to cry in my DMIR class.
I have a wonderful bf of almost a year, but because I don’t see him as much anymore, I don’t really have a lot of other people I can talk to. Most of my good friends are either off at college, have moved away, or I just don’t see them that often. The only things that comfort me are playing the Sims 3 video game, doing makeup, and playing the piano.
I don’t know what to do anymore, and if I don’t figure it out soon, I know what’s going to happen: I’ll fall back into having ADD and depression and becoming suicidal again…
FML!!!!
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There are other jobs in music and art. If you said history, I would agree, but in those fields you could be a songwriter, a painter, a graphic artist… If you took courses in art, you could even design advertisements, etc. There are TONS of jobs in those fields– many of which are pretty cool. Do some research– maybe you’ll find a job you didn’t know exist. You could even talk to your counselor… if yours isn’t stupid, of course. Ever considered teaching piano? Or maybe you could go to a recording studio? Find your passion and go for it. Don’t force yourself to do something you’re not happy doing, otherwise you’ll continue to be miserable. (But make sure your goal is specific and reachable – too many college grads don’t find jobs)
In any case, good luck.
I will say this, and this is not an exaggeration nor repeated cliche:
you seriously sound like the male & older version of me.
I’m 29 yr old male, also an ‘ADD’ musician/songwriter who still haven’t found my way/path even now due to all my lack of focus etc.
There seems to be a silver thread that connecting ADD, high creativity, and depression, much more than you could initially think of.
if you want somebody to chat or converse or relate, you can email me at nikiwonoto (at) gmail (dot) com. we can probably share so much in common.
Wow, I too have had a huge crative background in music and I loved art in school but im 28 now and all the time ive spent in music and entertainment has brought me to this point were I no longer have a path in life. Ive spent the past 10 years trying to make it in the cherts either with bands or as a solo artist and after tearing my hair out for so long, ive given it up but I have nothing to fall back on. I got kicked out by my step dad in my late teens whilst my mum did nothing about it and after finding my resl dad and having him kick me out of his home and keeping me at a distance…I spent years travellong up and down the country singing and performing in holiday parks. The life of a touring entertainer is a lonely road though and after it wearing me down I thought education was the key and I paid for numerous home learning courses out of desperation…its copst me A LOT of money. They (Computeach UK) seen me coming…
Ive been shafted so many times, too many to mention on here but alls I want to say is, whatever you decide to do in place of what you feel you may not succeed in (music or Art), make sure you look at the next steps very carefully before you decide because there are scams out there designed to use your vunerability to lead you into an expensive missleading situation. My courses cost me £5,500 and Ive still not passed anything. Home learning isnt a good enough situation for trying to pass really hard and worthwhile subjects. But this is just another story of how this world and the people in it have turned into corrupt and immoral entitys. I’m a bit of a people hater now…a misanthropist.