i just tired to tell my firnd i was bipolar. so i said hey im bipolar and her response hey im too! that hit me hard right in the chest and dropped be off a cliff into the waters below. of course no one is going to believe me, me of all people the happy upbeat firend who jokes and gives, but never recieves. so after being deepley hurt and tried to tell her i could have about 15 pchycologists sign a paper stating i was bipolar she said “i have crazy mood swings too” umm excuse me!? i just told you about everything and you think that is you? so i made a list a list of things i would never say in a joking way.
1) crazy
2) bipolar
3) mental
each of these because they afffect me and hurt me deepley because most of the time these people who utter these words don’t know what they are talking about. and that really hurts me because i AM those words. it hurts enough to drag me down again into the waters of sadness bubbling and festering below my even stable normalicy. im losing my grip and falling fast
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People who don’t know what it is like may be very insensitive. However, you should forgive them because they are ignorant in this matter. Talking about it can hurt, but just remember, you are not alone.
will692….how old are you? What is your history?
I’m 18. I have severe OCD. While I don’t know exactly how you feel specifically, I know the feeling of how many people make insensitive comments and treat OCD so casually, or that so many people think they have it. It gets very frustrating, but I just remember that they are not purposefully being rude, they are just ignorant of facts.
Isn’t funny? The Great Grimaldi, suffered from sever depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, and yet, he was the Father Of Modern Clowning; people from all over the world went to see his act- who’d had thought that a man full of laughs, making people oh so happy, was quite miserable himself.
Your friend sounds young and ignorant, if she cared, she would look up bipolarism herself.
@TiredMesh: it may sounds weird, but I have heard/read that all these OCD, bipolar traits can have a ‘something Positive’ side of a double-edged sword, and that’s strangely usually co-related with creativity, imaginations, insights, high sensitivity (HSP), empathy,..basically things that those many ‘Normal’ people or society wouldn’t ‘normally’ have.
Along with your Great Grimaldi perfect example, I’ve also head/read of how you can view these traits as a *tool* to unleash such great potentials, or creations, that this world might perhaps *really* in dire needs.
I admit that it can somewhat soothe and put a smile when I know this fact,
but at the same time, I sometimes shake my head at the funny Irony of it all.
Wow, I think Ive just realised what I may have myself…Bipolar. The discription of this sounds very much like me.