Innocence

Innocence. Everyone who is innocent, wish there were more of them. I am a virgin, but I rarely drink or smoke, so I wish I could say I am innocent (but you know shit can’t be pure or innocent). I used to be in love with a pure girl, too bad she didn’t give me a chance (too bad you stalked her on facebook with those love messages) =(. I have now fallen for my cousin, she aint close to innocent, shes young but drinks and wishes she could smoke weed. I love her dearly but she aint innocent. Wish she wasnt from Chicago so i could have met her earlier before she started being bad. Wish I could have changed my life. Wish I didnt let my dad take complete control, wish i did everything differently. i wish i wasnt related to jasmine so i could date her (and maybe if ur not related to her, you might be better looking too) =(.

Love, i hate love, causes me pain, wish i could change my ideas and thoughts, wish i wasnt such a ***** (exactly) wish i was a cooler person. wish my cousin wasnt so amazing, but i want her badly. too bad my dumbass uncle and dad cant trust me ever in my godfucking life. this aint fucking helping me (get angry and smash ur poor moms laptop) ugh i hate life so much, even i dont consider myself pure and innocent with these gpddamn fucking thoughts that keep going in and ouuttas my mindz i fuckin hate this shit im so bored an angry fuck my life goddamn it……. Why do i fake this smile… im a failure, can’t even leave this planet give me a fuchjkijn hdeart att…ack… (just give up)