Im the girl you would never suspect.. the one who keeps you laughing, smiling and feeling good about yourself. I show you how to have a good time and how to forget all the bad things in your life. but you would never suspect that i do all these things to hide my own faults and insecurities. . you say im a good friend because im a good listener but i only listen because i dont want you to suspect my own problems.But now its out of control. I feel as if everything is crashing down around me and i cant stop it. I am suffocating in the remains of my tattered life.  I want to give up because i know im done being strong. i cant even carry the weight of my own problems.  I want someone to take the time to ask me whats wrong, or for once notice the slashes across my wrist. I tried turning to the bottle but that just made me openly turn to people for comfort which lead to fucking my life up even more. I feel like i cant even breath.  how can i feel so hopeless in a hopeful world? why do i feel so lonely even when im surrounded by thousands of people? Is this my only way out??
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I know how you feel brother, I too have a women who let go of me…
This is my story (you don’t have to read it but you could parallel it)
http://suicideproject.org/2011/01/how-o_o/
Well…. As time passes I am starting to let go…. I don’t know yet.. I still desire her but not as much as I used to…. Many people tell me to let go… I don’t know… If you are able to let go… Give yourself some time.. Time may fix your problem.. That’s if you don’t mind your friend not returning back to your life….
hopeful world? not yet. thats our job. weve got to clean up the shit that the last generation left behind. itll be hard but itll be a hell of a lot more interesting than the trivial, status quo society that preceeded us and created this mess. of course its not the only way, it sounds to me like you need to talk to another you, someone who will actually listen rather than just wait for their turn to speak. i might not have much in the way of being able to help but ill spend the time to listen to you. drop me a line at lauriejohnson1@hotmail.co.uk if you wnat a chat, you dont need to tell me things you dont want to but i might just be able to help you up and give you a compass.
Brave of you to share. You sound like a caring person. Who hasn’t made wild choices and gotten them self in precarious circumstances. Hit me up if you need to chat, or leave your email. Cheers!
hi. thank you so much for your comment. i would like to chat with you sometime. my email is bartlett_sarahjane@yahoo.com
i hope to hear from you soon