Im the girl you would never suspect.. the one who keeps you laughing, smiling and feeling good about yourself. I show you how to have a good time and how to forget all the bad things in your life. but you would never suspect that i do all these things to hide my own faults and insecurities. . you say im a good friend because im a good listener but i only listen because i dont want you to suspect my own problems.But now its out of control. I feel asÂ ifÂ everythingÂ isÂ crashingÂ down around me and i cant stop it. I am suffocating in the remains of my tattered life. Â I want to give up because i know im done being strong. i cant even carry the weight of my own problems. Â I want someone to take the time to ask me whats wrong, or for once notice the slashes across my wrist. I tried turning to the bottle but that just made me openly turn to people for comfort which lead to fucking my life up even more. I feel like i cant even breath. Â how can i feel so hopeless in a hopeful world? why do i feel so lonely even when im surrounded by thousands of people? Is this my only way out??