Lately I have been very sad, and I usually come home from school crying. I am not sure if this is true or not, but my mind is constantly telling me that I am ugly, stupid and have no talent. My parents had me by accident, and sometimes I feel like they don’t want me. I’m not even sure how my friends feel about me. I feel like God made me as a joke, just to laugh at all the stupid things I do. Sometimes I feel like everything would just be better for everyone if I just ended it all. I am only thirteen years old, but this has been going on for a few months now. Please tell me how to escape from all these emotions. Someday it might just kill me.
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Hi. I’m really sorry to hear that you are feeling this bad. I’m a teacher and I think that you should talk to a teacher or your parents about how you’re feeling. Is anyone at school bothering you? You’re too young to be thinking about suicide.
ive yet to escape from my own depression so i may not be able to give the best advice but i do suggest that if you want to escape you try as hard as you can before its too late. and even if you were an “accident” why would your parents keep you if they didnt want you? there are plenty of other options but they chose to keep you so maybe you may annoy them at points (everyone annoys there parents at some point) im sure they love you. as for your friends.. well watch them. if they constantly use you i suggest you move on but maybe they care about you i wouldnt know. all i can say is watch how they act, most people betray their true thoughts in one way or another you just have to see it. i dunno maybe this is all just useless and maybe not what your looking for at all like i said im probably not the best to get advice from but i just thought maybe id try cause it doesnt sound like its too late for you to escape, you can still cry after all.
Your the same age as me when I first came here. The basics of my story without going into detail were very similar. Almost the same. I’m here for you If you want to talk
If I may make a suggestion: At least wait untill you are 18 and move out of your parents’ house. This gives you more power and control over your own life and destiny. Yes you are young, enjoy your youth, don’t worry about so many things, yeah I know school sucks, we’ve all been there, high school will be over before you know it, I know it seems forever in your current situation, things always change, ppl come and go out of your life.
Your friends just may not have the capacity to understand how you feel, I’ve learned the hard way that I can never trust anyone to understand anything about me. I’ve had to be strong on my own.
The cold hard reality though is: There is no escape, not even death (that’s my personal opinion)
However: Change the word “escape” to “relieve” There are methods to relieving negative emotions. http://www.emofree.com (once you get to this site, click on the other link)
Also: I have to do things that “make” me happy, I have to find things that make me happy. Watching a good movie, eating good food, reading a good book…etc…whatever it takes.
FYI…my 13 yr old friend…You are valued, you are cherished, talented, gorgeous and very much wanted. The thing is YOU have to seed that
belief WITHIN YOURSELF.
It’s too bad your folks are not more supportive…but if that’s the case, you have the challenge to learn the correct information about why you are feeling the way you do so you can learn how to navigate your way through. I’ve helped many teens with kind of thing and it is in no way your fault. I encourage you to be an ally to yourself,…a friend to yourself…saying things like God made you as a joke…you can’t prove that and I certainly can’t prove that so I see no truth in that statement.
I’ve posted tons of links and info about depression and family dysfunction…search them out…read them and maybe something will click with you. You can also call me, should you feel the need to reach out.
You’re worth far more than you know….Cheers!
Forgot to mention….your mind belongs to you! So if there’s something in there telling you something negative, tell it to shut-up and get the out!….You decide what your mind tells you, so use it to help you!
I’m about your age and I can totally relate. Please don’t do anything drastic. There are still people who care, trust me. There always are. And when all else fails, remember that God is always there, and He loves you no matter what. You have to find the strength in yourself to keep on living. Find solace in the little things, be happy. It is your life, so take control! Do something to help others, and you never know, it might come back around! If you ever need someone to talk to, I’ll be here. Good luck.
make a list of every positive thing about you, what you like about your inside and outside, and if you ever think bad about yourself, remember those good things about you and repeat them. you have to start believing in yourself and believing that you’re gorgeous, handsome, clever, and a nice person!
If you ever need to talk you can email me, we’re about the same age 🙂