Jasmine, you are an amazing girl and I wish I could stay on this planet, and be with you, but like everything I wish for. It is just a dream, a wish. I wish we could be together and I hope this place really is Hell because it’s the worst place ever. Theonly thing I wonder is why someone like yourself that’s so divine would be in a shithole like Earth. You are a beautiful and brilliant diamond in this shit. Why do you have an abusive, drugged, alcoholic dad and such a shitty life. I wish I could be with you at all times and protect you. I wish I could be your Edward and you my Bella, but we are related. Edgar Allen Poe married his cousin, he loved her and took care of her until she died, they were happy together and he was such a brilliant and depressed man. I’m sorry if I have suicided, because you must be sad that I did this and it probably would add to your negative list. A nice cousin who committed suicide, I hope you get your shit together and have a positive impact from this, but life ain’t that swell.Â
If I could be told that you will live to be happy, then I would do anything for that information, even kill myself. Babe, I want to live a new life where I meet you and fall in love with you, but I can’t get that. God doesn’t like me. And I don’t like him. I hope you treasure this note as much as possible and you know (I hope) that I love you so much, probably more than your parents, maybe in a different way than them but a lot more…