Alot of people wont read this, I am not that interesting. I am not humorous or witty. I have no money in the bank and no romance story for you. This will read as if im a mentally ill asian man who doesnt have a job. Maybe like a japanese person that kills thierself to save face or ass. It is four am on the first or possibly second day of spring, i will get no vagina this mating season as i am very poor. I have been schizophrenic almost all my life. Now in my early twenties i begin to worsen, and become more sick than human. I will stop there because you wont understand what its like to think that your thoughts are being stolen from you and talked about in the next your when your not paying attention. the tv speaks my name tho, President Obama mentioned me one of his speeches. Not really im fucking nuts, but not being in reality makes life incredibly painful. Im a type B so i know im crazy but i just cant stop the voices. My family wont allow me to seek help, and lovers have never wanted me to either. Dont medicate they say…but whatever i hate them more than god hates …idk you. As you can tell by the last sentence i have no friends. Im on a computer day and night trying to find a job to get out of the debt that college has made for me. If i dont get a job soon then i will be in very bad credit. I have a criminal record so no one will hire me. By now you hate me for the racist arrogant scum i am. I will hurt you, so obviously no one wants me around. Method? What does it matter i will go out in pain like i live with it. Hell is but a blink away…i plan to get drunk enough to do it today. Please dont pitty me it will only make tis sadder than it already is. My family will be effected but what will i care ill be dead.
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Hey, don’t sell yourself short. You sound very interesting, not like some boring normal person. Insanity is full of wonder. And, you seem to have a strong personality. “I will get no vagina this mating season.” I chuckled when I read that line. It’s an interesting way to put it. And you say you aren’t humorous? Hey, I’m in my early 20s, a poor college student, and I’m not sure I’ll ever get laid.
If you don’t care what effects your suicide will have on your family, then why care about them not wanting you to get treated. Call a doctor, get some meds.
I have no way of understanding what kind of reality you do, or do not, live in, but I think that you still have hope. If you don’t do it today, please post something later.
you sound like an interesting person, accept 1 thing i didn’t like ant that’s the vagina part: why the hell do guys talk about girls like they’re vagina’s? why didn’t you instead say: i will get no girl to love this mating season’ … just saying.
Take the initiative, it is so important that schizofrenia gets under control and the only way you can do that is by going to the doctor. And it’s a well know symptom that it gets worse in your 20’s. 2 options: 1) don’t tell your family anything and just go to the doctor, get the medication. 2) explain how you’re feeling and that you can’t go on like this, you can also hurt other people. and that you really want to get treated. I;ts so sad that your family isn’t supportive, cause they just don’t understand what schizofrenia is.
omg this is hack a post central people, i went to schizophrenia dot com and got a virus from a link but an experienced hacker could def get at you people. I can see your email adress and IP Address! wtf dude. hey i got high on some marijuana so i probably wont do it today cuz it makes me lazy. but seriously theres no future even for a medicated person like me. Ive taken anti depressants but they dont do shit, and the normaly prescribed seroquel wont work for me. I cannot be treated with drugs because it is a personality disorder. I forgot to mention my degree was in psychology. I DONT WANT TALK THERAPY