smcnally13,
you are unique, and very rare.
From your eyes, I’m confirmed your wisdom is far beyond your actual age.
It’s your soul that counts.

And from your photo, I see a few pretty beings along with some not.
Usually I saw photos that haunting souls were not pretty at all, and I knew the victim soon walking towards death, and I just kept my mouth shut knowing they wouldn’t believe that to facilitate my help. And if I decided sticking my nose in some business considered to be meddling, I’d be condemned and haunted.

As to your case, I could only hope you are godsend and with spirits at your sides to help, and may understand.

Please note that negativity likes to follow energy that immense, no matter that energy denotes weak or strong.
Negativity is like a mob in riot, when you’re strong you can manipulate them out of your range, and when you are weak they just come onto you.

Believe that you are on top above all ugliness, you simply need no piercings to boost your confidence of yourself.

Your centre of own thought is barricaded. And your help from others by your side is barricaded. And your speech of righteousness is barricaded too.
Free yourself ! Free your positive energy from within.

You have power I believe in that. Just fear-not, howl from within, your light of righteousness will shine through.
Strengthen yourself then you can help people around you, especially your mother !

If you try to die, your good spirits will try intervening, once, twice, may be, but not unlimited.
Their power is never to ostentatiously demonstrating, afterall, this is a material world.

But your problem lies mainly in your soul.
And your mother is wrecking in both body and soul.

There are people who can fix, only if you can at least believe the power of spiritual part !