“Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grass waving above one’s head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday and no tomorrow. To forget time, forgive life, and be at peace.”
I’m going to kill myself and I couldn’t be happier. I’ve been waiting for five years to do this and now it’s so close. I’d share my story if it wasn’t so tragically boring and normal. And I reallyÂ wish I could ease the pain of all of you who are suffering, who are trapped in this miserable world, and who only feel pain. All I know is that I’m tired of being here and am lookingÂ forward to whatever comes next.
Anyway, the reason I’m posting is because I’ve still got a little time left and some money I’ve saved up for this final month. I’d love suggestions on things I should do (crazy or illegal if you must), maybe some books to read, TV shows and movies to watch, places I have to visit, experiences that I can’t die without trying.
I know a lot of us come to this decision because of emotional trauma, a hurt that will never go away, anger at God or the world, etc. That’s fine, it’s our lives and we should be allowed to do whatever we want with them. I just hope you can find a way to go out happy. After all, death will be so beautiful.