everytime I think I’m that much closer to killing myself, something stops me. Problem is, I don’t want that thing to stop me. I don’t want anything to hold me back. I want that feeling of guilt to pass me by. I just don’t want to feel. Like how murderers can kill without feeling guilt. Instead they feel pleasure. That’s what I want. I want to feel pleasure in killing myself.
It will happen soon. Hopefully sooner than I think.
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Why do you feel guilty then?
I have the same problem. If I didn’t worry how my loves ones would be affected, I would have killed myself already. I wish I could either feel pleasure in killing myself or someone would do the job for me.
Hey girl interrupted. So i guess you didnt have any luck in finding a partner?
Stop fooling your self. Its not feeling of guilt which is stoping you. U are scared/coward to do anything. Accept the fact. I also suffering the same. I am like u
Rutwij25′ I disagree. Granted fear does play a part but so does guilt. My father killed himself whilst I was a child. It devastated my family and the consequences are still with us. My brothers wife killed herself a few years back, again damage. Do not fool yourself, suicide punishes the survivors, many suffer. I do however agree that it is not sufficient to live only in order to avoid causing others suffering. Those others will suffer though.
@cracked- exactly. Fear of course plays its part but I think the guilt I would feel would overshadow that. Days where I feel okay or at least decent, something happens to bring me back to square one.
@rutwi- I agree with you to some aspect but like I said, guilt plays that part more.
@crying- nope. No one. People suck. Maybe I’ll wait for tali. Idk
Oh okay yeah me either i guess i’ll just do it myself. I wish we lived closer i’d do it with you
@Crying where do you live?
@kottonkandiikid im in Australia. Hbu?
Damn im in UK.
Yeah most people are 🙁
Really?
Wow i nvr knew that…
Yeah i’ve noticed most people are either in the u.s or u.k and its the same on other websites i’ve been on too
things would be soo much easier if you had a partner!
If you are feeling guilty, or if you have doubts, then you are simply not ready to kill yourself. You will need to have an overwhelming sense of sadness, despair or grief to do it. Any guilt will be inconsequential at that point.
Or you could simply be numb, bored, and tired of life that you just do it. Emphasis on the numbness…