I wish I had a dream worth dying for.

This is my second post, it feels pretty good to be able to talk freely without a bunch of people telling you how insane you are or why life is worth living, blah blah blah.

I was thinking recently how badly I wish I had a crazy dream like sailing solo across the world or tying a bunch of balloons to a deckchair and flying around dropping pennies on people. I was never talented at anything, not music or sports, so there was never a big hopeful dream that fueled my desire to live.  Imagine going out in a blaze of glory, beating the cannonball run record of driving from NYC to LA in under 33 hours, flying an airplane into the mouth of a volcano, or maybe just being brutally honest to everyone you meet and telling off all your friends and family.

So my question is: what dream would you die for? What the most insane suicide you can think of? Glorious or illogical, I’d love to hear your responses.