So In the last few weeks my life has changed dramatically I don’t even know where to start I guess.
First thing I guess is me and my on and off again boyfriend of 3 years we finally ended it for good. We got into a huge fight because he doesn’t want to admit that he had done anything to ruin the relationship. Which pisses me off because flirting notoriously with my two best friends is not okay. I don’t know why he thought he would get away with it on top of that. When we were not together he made one of my best friends fall for him and broke her heart when me&him got back together, I had no knowledge of that fact until we got back together and she tried to break us up. So when I found out we broke up yet again. But anyways, the fight calmed down and we actually talked for once in our 3 years of being together because he always avoids the talks that we desperately needed and I know that if we actually had the talk earlier then about 3 weeks ago we would have saved each other from the pain we both caused. Â I had admitted that I fucked up a few times and I did things I am not proud of during the relationship and there really is no excuse for what I did to him. But I apologized and tried making myself better so I wouldn’t screw up again, Â To this day he doesn’t think that he really broke my heart as many times as I told him he has. Â But after the break up 3 weeks ago I wanted to be friends. He agreed but sooner or later he was pretty much begging for me back. Â And it hurt a lot because I wanted to so bad but I knew it was better if we didn’t get back together so I told him no each time he tried to get us back together.
Then comes Travis. I thought we were just going to be friends because I didn’t want a relationship because I had just gotten out of one. We made plans but things happened and we never ended up hanging out. Than one day out of the blue we made plans to go see a movie, And I was very happy that I did not cancel plans. We  had a lot in common and he was a complete gentleman.  We talked for hours and pretty much after that day we hung out as often as we could. For about 3 weeks now we have been with each other for almost every day.  And about a week into seeing each other he asked me out.  We haven’t had one argument yet and that is a great change in a relationship. His family adores me and my family adores him. I really like him and I think I’m falling for him.  He makes me feel so secure and safe and he makes sure I always have a smile on my face. I can see me&him working out for a long time and I’m truly excited to see where me&him go.  We get along so well that it’s crazy the 2 week of dating we started finishing each other sentences and it was pretty crazy.  I feel a real deep connection with him.
When my ex found out that I was seeing someone he got mad. He constantly tries to make fun of Travis and tries to make himself sound like a better guy to be with.  He is also turning on the charm and tried to get me to stop seeing Travis and I was able to turn him down. It was hard because he started bringing up all the good memories that we had, but I managed to tell him that I was no longer interested. Soon after he found out that me and Travis were dating he got  with Angie a girl that he was sleeping with while we were on a break. Apparently from what he says is that she looks a lot like me but is a bit ditzy in the brain. And I feel bad because so far all he has done is try and make me jealous by dating her. And So I feel sorry for her because he is using her. But at the same time I hope he can open his eyes and see that she’s an amazing girl and that he moves on from me as well.  I just don’t know why he is trying to hold on to something that was gone a long time ago even before we broke up for the last time.  Yes we loved each other and still do for the most part but, we are not right for each other relationships shouldn’t have to feel like you are in a war against each other and thats how it was.  And I realized it was not healthy and stopped things because I knew the longer we stayed together the more in the end we would hate each other.And I couldn’t deal with that he has made a huge impact on my life and losing him completely would send me over the edge.
WELL that was my rant haha lol sorry if it was so long I just needed to write it out