Should I continue to please you? Disregarding my own emotional needs. To continue on with this cyclic, self inflicted torture.
Or should I turn bitter, mould my trusting mind into a people despiseing, egotistical, sadistic fool. Who enjoys nothing more than to give others a taste of their own medicine.
Fuck it. Why should I have to decide. My own decieved mind shall create it’s own preference, it’ll decide on it’s own.
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If I’m reading this correctly you’re feeling you have to stay alive for someone else when all you want is to die, well you’re not alone on that. And it certainly is a tough one to answer, a no win situation if ever there was one. Like with me I have someone who relies on me so if I die he’s fucked, yet if I stay alive he’s still fucked in a sense cuz I’ll resent him for the rest of my life…
It’s like, give me a fucking break! *argh* If I had no strings attached I’d already be where I want to be, fuck you very much world bye…
My posts meaning is alot less conplicated than that. I’m actually just wondering if I should continue to talk to someone who just ignores me at their will. xD
Oh okay, lol, I read it wrong then! Sorry…
That person sounds more like a fair-weather friend…