Why am I breathing?

I’m the same way now. I was going to kill myself, but changed my mind last minute. Now those who are close know what I was going to do talk about how much they would hurt were I gone. I don’t care anything about my own life, but I can’t leave now because I don’t want to hurt everyone else. I could ignore it before, but having seen my mother cry after I told her what I was going to have done, I can’t put her through it. I think I’ll just put it off a couple years til I get out of college and can be by myself and separate from everyone who cares. Hopefully that’ll lessen the blow a bit.

Forgive me if I am wrong, but I think longtimegone would agree, staying alive for yourself would be much better. It’s not that simple though. To find something for yourself to stay alive for isn’t simple. People may try to help, but finding something must be done yourself, and I have found nothing.