I am proof that no God of any kind exists. I’m not knocking anyone’s religion, so don’t get all protective over your religion on me. Just hear me out. A God loves his creations and would do anything to help them if they need it. I haven’t got any kind of help, from mortal or immortal beings. I’ve loved and cared for tons of people, gave them advice, and sometimes gave them a place to stay when their Mother was abusive or their Father was going ape shit. I help them with their pain, but what do I get? Absolutely fucking nothing. They just want to be fixed, just them. They don’t care if I ever get fixed. Now that I think about it, if I am “Broken” or whatever, there is no possible way for me to be fixed. But someone could put forth a little effort just to show me that they are there and that they are my friend. But no, that doesn’t ever happen. I even help my 47 year old Mother. I listen to her fucked up problems for hours, give her my own and best advice, and treat her like she’s a queen. But for some odd reason, she sees me as a liar, a user, and a piece of shit daughter. Thanks Ma. So, I’m done trying to help these greedy, self centered fuckers. They can all rot for all I care. Goddamn your life, goddamn your education, goddamn your significant others/husbands and wives, goddamn YOU especially. I don’t give two shits anymore. Thee is no way to help me, or fix me anymore, so goddamn you therapists, goddamn my so called friends, goddamn everyone. I hate you all.
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Hey, sorry you feel this way :(. Sometimes people are selfish, and I respect that you try your best to help them. But you need to care about what you want too. Maybe you have the wrong sort of friends (not judging you or anything), but if they don’t care about you, what sort of friends are they? And about your mother, well, people don’t what what they have until they lose them. Please don’t give up faith in yourself or in everybody else. There are some people out there who can help and listen to your problems, although sometimes hard to find.
Thanks=) It means alot to me to hear everyone’s opinions on my posts. Thanks for the advice also, best advice I’ve had in a while.
Well actually that sounds pretty familiar, my girlfriend lately feels like that too. Maybe it’s not that they are bad friends, they are just oblivious to your feelings. But I wouldn’t try to tell them about it, it never ends well.
What endtheagony said about caring more for yourself… I think it’s the best you can do, just try to listen to yourself, think about what you trully want, but not some typical ideals like a good job, a boyfriendt etc… just try to think about what you need in that instant, an icecream, taking a bus instead of walk, little thinks like that, it may sound stupid, but sometimes little things can improve a lot our mood.
You seem like you are very good and caring about the people around you, don’t let it all go to waste, sooner or later it will be usefull for something, even if it’s only for the experience.