it never seems to leave

no matter what evryday my mind is clouded. no matter what i do depression is always with me. i try to act happy but then again it is acting. i feel so weak. i find it hard to have faith in things anymore. no faith in people life n love n most of all in my self. i am my own worst enemy. i cant tell if things are simple or complicated.  im desperate for change.  i have questions that will never be answered n help i will not recieve.