But I know how hard it’s been on me.
I’d never have the guts to kill myself, so what am I doing here? I feel like it’s time I reached out, for once. The minuscule amount of times I have with people in my life have failed. No one listens, so I’ve learned to keep my mouth shut. I just need someone to reach back out to me for once. I can’t explain what’s even wrong with me; it’s hard to put it all together into words when every day is such a friggin’ struggle.
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Try to put it into words. It is sometimes hard too do, but try.
I say this because I would like to hear you out. I would listen.
I just feel worthless, ignored, ugly, ect. I’ve never had self confidence.. like ever. It doesn’t help that I cling to people who just seem to like hurting me more. Even within my own family, it’s rare if anyone pays any attention to me. I can’t even recall when the last time I’ve seen my dad was, and my mother is usually just more involved/interested in my two older sisters lives. But I feel like that doesn’t even scratch the surface of what’s wrong sometimes. If that makes any sense. 😐
It does make sense. It’s not fun to feel worthless and ugly. Self confidence does play a big part in our happiness. A good reason you might cling is because you get very attached to anyone who gives you attention since it makes you feel less…ignored. Regardless how they treat you it is better than nothing.
Does that make any sense either?
that’s definitely me.. I get so attached to anyone so easy. Not one person has stuck around, and it hurts more each time. lol.
So you can honestly say you really have no one to rely on?
No one but my laptop, as disgusting as that is. That’s what I’ve been reduced to.
That isn’t disguesting at all. I don’t care what it is, as long as it brings you comfort in anyway then it is a beautiful thing. Sometimes it is the best thing when you feel alone. You have the whole world infront of you with a computer and the internet.
but I’d trade it any day for just ONE person who understands. Somebody who just cares even a little. Gah. Sorry if I’m being annoying.
Why would you think you are being annoying? lol I am serious when I ask that. There is nothing annoying or bugging going on. You do not need to worry about annoying me. Or anyone over the internet. I am hear to listen to you, you are not gonna annoy me with talking about your problems.
I sound like a conceited ***** when I talk about myself though. (<like that) .. I probably shouldn't have even posted anything but I thought it might help some or something, but I also didn't want to bother anyone. :X
There is a HUGE difference from wanting to talk about personal problems and being conceited. And a *****. You are not coming off as either. You dont think you should of posted anything? Did you want to stop talking?
No you’ve actually helped cause I was on the verge of tears while I was writing the first post and I’m pretty chill right now, I really appreciate it, thank you so much. And it’s usually better if I just don’t bring shit up cause I don’t stop haha.
You are fine :). Did you want to keep talking here or email? My email is Protoryu@gmail.com
It is up too you.