Countdown – 1-2 hours

I’ve posted some entries here before, under the name of sebastior (forgot my password so i made a new account)

anyway so yeah, i think i’m ready to go, gonna wait for mum to go take a nap, then i’ll leave the flat and yeah. i’ve finished the suicide note and the personal note to mum. gonna test the method again before i go, just to make sure i do it right

so errm i’ll be going pretty soon i’m guessing. i’ve said i’ma do this for over a month but i keep pussying out, but this time i don’t think i will, or at least i hope i won’t. i’m actually quite excited, but at the same time i’m scared. i don’t wanna fuck up.

i got everything prepared, got like 4 fairly long ropes. y’know those rope things in shirts? i tied 2 together, and some shoelaces and pant laces or whatever. so each rope thing has 2 ropes tied together, and i have a cord as well. i’ve chosen to do ligature asphyxiation, but not tie it tight enough to stop me from breathing. i just gotta make sure i hit the carotids. if suicide project deletes my post because i told you all what my plan is then fuck you, i’ve seen lots of people do it and their posts haven’t been deleted.

EDIT; does anyone know what you feel like when you block the carotids? i blocked them and my face felt warm and i felt a pulse in my head and felt kinda light headed i think, my legs felt weird like cold kinda and i started seeing a blue light. or at least i think i blocked them, i’m not sure