Is it?
I think I need someone. I really want to kill myself. I think something’s wrong with me. I’m only 17 years old. I draw, paint and write. Those are the only things I do really well in at school, I get almost 100% always for what I write/paint/draw. Those are the only things I love in life. But I’ve been under this phase for months. I thought it was just something that would pass. I don’t know how to get rid of it.
I don’t know how to break out to people I know that I like to cut myself. I like to knife myself. I like to fork myself. I like to mutilate myself. I like playing with sharp silver objects.
How did you do it? How did you reach out for help?
I think I need help. I’m scared what I might do to myself and others. I’m really scared, as cowardly as that sounds. If you know something, I’m begging you. Please help me.
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it is normal, nothing about how you are feeling is abnormal at all. it is scary trying to deal with these thoughts alone and just trying can make it worse. i self harmed for 5 years on and off without anyone knowing, the only way anyone eventually found out was after a failed suicide attept. i was in a coma for 3 days and when i eventually came round there was a priest by my bed with my parents as the doctors thought i would not make it. i later opened up to my parents about what had been happening over the years and to my suprise they where totally supportive, researching the subject for ways to help and having open and frank conversations with me. i dont recomend waiting as long as i did, i almost died as a result of the building pressure of keeping these thoughts to myself. i suggest ringing a confidential support line, talking to a relative or even a doctor. you are’nt the first person to feel this way and there are thousends of people who know exactly what you are going through. since getting the help and support i needed i have gone on to get promoted in work, get married and now have a very fulfilling and happy life. asking for help is one of the bravest things you can do. you are not a coward. i hope this has helped. stay safe.
If you think you need help. You got to see a doctor. Dont feel embarrassed about it. Do it.
Yes it is normal, if life is not worth living and it cannot get any better, why carry on?
GiaBrownRocks@Gmail.com– I would be SO happy to help you. You have me, And I can help you through anything. Just email me. ^^
Thank you all so much.
I’ve tried reaching out before but I never really got a response. I couldn’t say it, I just hinted things and I guess no one really got it.
Thank you for being the first people to say something to me.
I don’t know what else to say for now… But I’m trying to fix up myself.
And cotosh, you are so strong. I’d love to be like you.
you are like me. i was scared, alone, felt empty inside and that i couldn’t go on. all it takes is that first brave move and you will get all the support you need. you will be suprised by how many people close to you know what you are going through and how they will help. people commit suicide for loads of different reasons, the one common factor is the need for relief, but relief is a feeling, you won’t feel it if you are gone. it is hard reaching out and hard rebuilding yourself but if i did it, you can. if you want any help starting just ask and i will do all i can to support you and help you through it. you’re not on your own, stay safe.