I should be dead by now, yet I’m still here. Suicide is not the easiest thing to do
when not depressed.
I decided that a little help from some Oxycontin would be the ticket. The problem is that I don’t do dope anymore, it’s been 20+ years since using
on a regular basis and painkillers never were my thing anyway.
I’m in Vegas and went on line to check local price’s and saw that possibly
I would be able to make a hook-up online, yeah right Big Mistake.
I knew it was dangerous to attempt to buy anything thru an online
hook-up.
Well anyway I am meeting this unknown person at a casino parking lot. My
alertness was the only thing that stopped me from being popped. It was
of course a police set up. Well just because your paranoid doesn’t mean
they’er not out to get you.
Anyway I stuck with only my bottle of ********. I had attempted to end my
life with Helium and the sound of the gas passing threw the valve is a
scary sound.
I have to do this or spend many years in prison, possibly the rest of my life.
At my age, 20 years could very well be the rest of my life.
I’ve driven into the desert numerous time over the last 3 weeks looking
for the right spot, a place that will afford isolation with no interuptions.
I have found some places yet cannot seem to put the bag over my head and open the bottle of ********.
This sucks.
7 comments
Please don’t do it. You can find help and happiness and enjoy life.
You are a beautiful life!! A beautuful soul!! This is your true nature-it’s just covered with pain right now!! Please listen to Hay House Radio-it is so Loving and comforting and Light–it really can help you change your life into something you really live, love, enjoy and appreciate! I used to be where you are-I am so much better now–you can be too I promise!! You ARE worth life–even if people have made you feel you aren’t. It’s a damn lie! You are worthy of your OWN BEAUTIFUL LIFE!! I wish you MUCH LOVE & JOY in your LIFE & SELF-DISCOVERY!!
Yo, The hell is wrong with you people? Whare did old fashion suicides Go??? Like why bother bying a pills; bad or gas when you can just snap yore neck???
re ragdoll, …… lol,
there aren’t many tree’s out here in the deserrt to hang yourself.
I have a rope in the trunck, and have an eye out for a nice tree or structure.
Hey-You have to HELP YOURSELF GUYS!! You are worth it!! Turn on Hay House and listen for a WEEK–I DARE YOU 😉 LET SOME LIGHT IN YOUR LIFE AND YOU WILL SEE OPPORTUNITIES FOR CHANGE & HAPPINESS! No one can do this for you but you-ever. Do it for yourselves, My Loves–You are Worth More than All the Jewels in the WORLD! You are A PRECIOUS SOUL–HONOR YOURSELF!! Love, Light, Hugs & Happiness!!
Use google maps to save the drive
First of all Neck-Snap and hanging yore self is 2 diffrent things… all you need to do is to put both hand on yore head and turn it in 360 decrease… Just DO NOT Practise it…