So…Depression

So why am i depress? Why do i act like this? I hate life. I fucking hate it. I know i didnt expericen a lot about it but i have enough of it. The people i have see everyday. The bullying that always seem to come around. The stress so much stress. Frustration to the problem i have. What could be possibly better than that. One dead best friend. Invisble to others. The concent question” are you okay?” If i already said im fine why do you need to ask more questions. You dont have to deal or put up with me. I never ask you in the first place. I know you guys care but i dont. I dont care. I been caring all these times and now you deicide to fucking show it. It seems like i cant finish anything. Is it because i dont want to or im just too weak too? Mom… I dont why i cant tell you. I guess i dont trust you enough. Im a coward who isnt strong enough anymore. Stuck in my self-pity. Stuck in my room. I dont want to do after school stuff. No clubs, sports, or activies. I dont want to spend anymore time at that school. Im always ready to go home and i havent even left the house yet. :L i guess… i cant do anything exceot be depress and stuck in my room. I weight 111.8 Lbs and im still feel fat. I cant even be happy about the way i look anymore…