i’m 26, attractive , some people see my life and think i have it all together but on the inside i am crying cuz i feel as if my life has no pint..useless…live alone in a city i moved to from my homeland…no real frenz or family to go out with or do things with …so all i do is work and stay hitched up under my bf..who i found text messages in his phone to other girls…dont want to stay in a relationship just to say i am in one…dont want to nag him with all of my emotional baggage and daddy issues….feel so alone …like my life has no point ..no one understands me or knows the real me …i keep everything inside and feel so insecure and not good enough for anything or any body…i feel as if i will never be able to own a home, no man will ever go down on his knees and ask me to marry him, i will never have kids , never be successful …just want to curl up in a ball and cry …just stop existing …dont want to be a burden on anyone or make anyone feel guilty …just dont know how to end this pain..or how to make myself feel better…so for the mean time ..i try to jus drink and smoke and sleep….dont want to go to hell …dont want to hurt my mother…dont know how to feel better..just want to stop.
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hey I can relate a bit to what you’re going through. i have no friends either and mostly go to work and come home. it’s a pretty pointless existence. i’m too afraid and shy to do anything about it so the chances of things changing is pretty slim. i try to be optimistic but something always brings me back down. it’s hard living like this. hope things get better for you.
I feel the same way you do, except I don’t have a man. (That could probably be a blessing). Sometimes I hate facebook because it always feels like everyone is bragging. I feel myself being so envious of all these people out there actually living life and apparently enjoying it while I struggle to make it to end of the day.
Well, being successful in a career, owning a home, and being married and having children, and married friends isn’t what its cracked up to be. I have all of these but I am still lonely. You never change even when your life changes. You can get everything you want and still be sad. It all depends on you if you can find a way to be happy alone. You can be happy in any state in your life I garuntee. Love starts with you. Do something you’ve wanted to do for a long time but maybe you were too afraid to do it and then watch your life change.
THANK YOU ALL FOR REPLYING
for the little time you actually took time to write me , i appreciate it
@chelly and thanatos – i had a good day after that , for a few and here i am again , almost at the same spot …..sigh
school is starting , my boss is a mess, time to look for a new job, wanted a bigger apartment , dunno how i am gonna afford it now – life just sux
i really dont know the answer guys i wish i did
@wordless – i know your right – but i use those things for hope that if i nhave them i’ll be happy cause i dont right now and i am incredibly just feeling worthless and pointless 🙁
gonna post again today so look out for it