Will leaveing a exit note to my 4year old ( to be opend when she 21) and my wife i mean soon to be xwife ( the reason i need to go ) and family be helpfull to them or make it harder for them.
Thay will know why anyway i have been a deppresd for 3 months and wanting to do this since then.
Any comments or experiences with exit notes will be helpfull.
How many paintball gun tanks will i need. n2. To fill my car to do the job, dont think i could put a bag or mask over my head.carnt find any big tanks of the stuff. Or should i just run a hose from my exhaust through the window.
Would like to od but i have read that it is a hard way to try due to easy failer. But i would find pills easyr
Any advise on this would also be good as if i fail i dont want brain damage
before i go i intend to teach my little girl to ride a bike an takeher on afew days out to tell my family i love them have a day out them meet my wifes new man and give him my blessing or brake his legs wont know tell i meet him.and tie up some loose. ends.she is better with out me, every one is.im a
failer.i only have 15 days tops as she is with him now
Evreything i touch turns to poo allways has, lucky she stayed with me for 9 years
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That’s a good idea to go and spend time with your family. And i suggest breakin the dudes legs to at least let out a lil anger before you go. Hell, they can’t put you in jail you’ll be gone
Note or not, your suicide will damage your childrens’ lives in ways you cannot even fathom. You will also help to increase the chances that they too will come one day to think of suicide as an answer to their problems. Your belief that your loved ones are better off without you is tunnel vision thinking that is common with severe depression. Please think about seeking help from a professional before you make this irreversible decision.
I now its a bit harsh and selfish but My little one is 4 she will forget me. She has very loveing family on her side. My wife has already, not many friends that would notice, its just my folks that would suffer. Was thinking of saying im going on a trip and finding a very isolated spot where i wont be found.
So do i leave the ppl i love a letter will it help or hinder them.
What about the method of my exit need help with this it needs to be fast plz help.
How long will a hose in my car take.
From my research, I don’t know how certain exhaust would be. However, charcoal seems much more likely to succeed. My intention would be to light up a couple of charcoal grills, let em burn down to nice coals and put em in the car. The volume of charcoal required will depend on the size of the car. Two grills should be plenty sufficient for a compact car, more for larger. The mechanism would be the same, carbon monoxide poisoning. With modern cars, a lot of effort has been put into making the exhaust less dangerous. I rather doubt nitrous tanks for paintball would produce enough gas to fill a car or room to a lethal concentration, though if successful I suspect NO2 would be a slightly more pleasant exit. Carbon monoxide does come with some slight discomforts (nausea, headache, tingling) but nothing relative to direct asphyxiation.
On the subject of a note, I don’t believe it would have any significant effect either way. From what those who care about me have said following the discovery of my prior plans, the effect of the suicide would be far more significant than any understanding that could be provided by a note.
If you’d like to discuss anything further, feel free to contact me, likenschnimer @ yahoo.com
i did come across the charcoal meathod but wouldnt it make the car smokey and hard to inhal, more so than the tail pipe?? Dont want to suffer or be painfull.
N02 would be a nice way i think but carnt get hold of the stuff in large amounts.
The exit bag is the best way i have found but i havent got the balls to put a bag over my head, silly i know considering i want to die
plus i carnt find pure helium. If only i could get a gun or rattle snake.
Untell i started looking i never thourght this would be so hard
I have spent the morning googling exit by tailpipe gas, to many misshaps and fails need a new way.
your just passing the pain on!! my brother committed suicide 6 years ago and I’m still feeling the emotional pain. think about your daughter! Seek professional help for your daughters sake and don’t take your life.
In a way you are right, and untell my problems began i thourght takeing your own life was stupid weak and takeing the easy way out of a situashion. You dont know my story or my pain if i keep going on like i am i will drink myself to the grave anyway. If i go seek help i would end up in the nut house. My little girl will forget me in no time she is young.
I have not come here to be judged i came here for help in finding my way out.
Im truely sorry about your bro but it was his life to do what he wanted with and he is in a better place with now pain!
How do you know that’s @snapper brother he’s in a better place. Maybe he’s just dead. I’m going to Judged you @lonelyman. Your guilty as charged.
Leave your D with out a father. WTF cause what your wife ran out on you?
Wait untill your D turn’s 21 them you feel the same then do it. Your D will need her father. Are you going to fail here? grow up asshole
I am now a mental health nurse,I spent some time previously in a mental health ward,it saved my life. So what u spend a bit of time in a psych ward, It’s not that bad,they genuinely want to help you. What inspired me to recover was my niece,she’s 2 y.o. talk to your doctor,or a friend about what your feeling,trust me it’s worth it. Good luck buddy:)
Donniedeath thankyou for some reason wot u said has made me see i carnt do this thanyou dont now y u made me see sence but ty i carnt leave my girl.
You have saved my life an that of my family iou thank you
i still feel very deppresd but killing myself isnt the arnser i love you man ty