This is a letter that I was gonna leave to my wife.I did go through the motions for this suicide but I over did it and I failed.I am going to use this same letter and just cross out the date and write”failed”,then put in the new date so it will be done later this week.I should have added the use of a rope or bag and tie…………. My dear wife Nancy, I wish I could spare you the ordeal you have ahead.I would like to be foregiven for the times I have hurt you.I have put together some things that will help you,I hope.Please respect my wishes,no matter how much this will cause more pain.I wish to be creamated as soon as possible with no viewing and no ceremony.Let my family know this so they will not try to come here.If I am found with any signs of hope,please do not revive.This is very important because this was my choice and I will be very damaged and will pass anyway.I do not fear death itself,only the life and uncertain future I have now.Please say the things I have not,I will miss everyone. All my love———
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I hate you
It’s aight cuz we love you
Please do not do this. Your suffering is treatable. There is help.
@lisarich: Suffering is not treatable, it can only be alleviated for periods at a time. It shouldn’t be looked upon as a disease because emotional distress isn’t much like a broken leg or cancer. It is pain and pain is a part of life. The world flows and death is a part of the circulation. You must accept the flow. Accept reality for how it truly is.
lvs225: May you find that which you seek.
My pain was treated and now i’m happy. i don’t mean to contradict you but suffering is curable. But it’s a medicine you have to find yourself. Umbra, i think you’ve given up looking. May you find what YOU seek, Umbra. Your a good person and everything will work out for the better for you. Just hang in there.
A cure doesn’t not require a constant supply of ‘meds’
@TC: Situations/outcomes aren’t the same for everyone. Please don’t think that I have given up looking from what little you know about my character. And, I must sincerely thank you for your kind words.
I didn’t mean anything bad by it. I’ve seen alot of struggle out of life and 9 times out of 10 it all worked out. The one time it doesn’t work out is for Marines but that’s what we’re here for, to take on life’s problems for you. I believe you guys will find something that keeps you goin, even if it is meds…
I’m jus playin on the meds thing
semper fi TC
RAH
Semper fidelis “Always Faithful” <=I like that motto.
…do or die…
Im sorry but You don’t wish you could spare her the ordeal she has ahead – if u did u would not do it. I’ve been on both sides of suicide….I attempted to kill myself & failed. A few months later I found my housemate hanging, cold & stiff from our garage roof. She may have put herself out of intense pain (& believe me I know that pain. It is overwhelming & unbearable & for a long time I never thought it would ever stop). But the trauma & guilt & excruciating pain she has caused everyone who knew & loved her is a thousand times worse than one persons anguish could ever be. U may think your wife & family will get over it, but they won’t. I will never get over losing my friend to suicide. If I have learnt anything it is that u have to fight & if you’ve been fighting for years, keep fighting!!! & if you think you can’t fight anymore, you’re wrong because u are so much stronger than u realise!!! I know what it feels like to be in your position but the pain I have witnessed from my friends suicide would never ever be worth taking my own life. I didn’t know that before, but now I do. Don’t do this.