my time has come

Things we do in life always have consequences be they good or bad. 2 years sounds like a long time, and being locked up sure ain’t fun – but when you play you pay. That’s what my moms last husband always said – and the cops ended up killing him. He was right. Drinking is just bad all around. I quit on my own 5+ yrs. ago – I did the dumbest crap when drinking.

Sure house arrest sucks and jail isn’t easy – but once in, take some classes and get your life together as best you can. Killing yourself ain’t as easy as it seems (as you know) and there’s no for sure on where we end up. The last time I tried, I had demons flying at me -literally diving at me and there were a bunch of them. I grew up with ghosts and stuff and have seen things since I was a kid so I don’t know if they’d be visable to everyone – but they were there and I’ve never been so terrified. I actually begged NOt to die. It’s just so chancy. Cured me of trying for the past 7 yrs anyhow.

But seriously, if you end up doing time – as nuts as this might sound, try take classes and learn some computer stuff or something. I always said if I ended up in prison that I’d get some college credits – paid for by the state! Learn and maybe start lifting or something. I really hope everything works out for you. You sound so much like my son. Everyone makes mistakes – it’s part of what we do. And as messed up as it is right now – you can get through it. It might not seem like it, but you can.

If we learn from our mistakes, that’s what makes the difference. By the way, most of my moms boyfriends fathers DIED in prison – because they kept going back. Most of her ex-boyfriends I’m sure will too. Doesn’t make them really bad people, they just didn’t learn. I really wish you the very best and I hope everything works in your favor